The paths I've walked...for a purpose

Ever 'studied' something for years and then just quit cause you 'hated' it, only to end up regretting your decision?

Ever fought with your really close friend and end up not talking for like years?

Ever been back-stabbed by people just so that they can climb over you to get something they want?

Ever been hated by people when all you're doing is for their own good?

Ever told someone the truth about what others think about them only to have them hate you?

Ever wished that you had told them how you feel rather than keeping it in?

Ever watched the one you love from afar... never going near?

Ever break up a relationship so that your precious person can find their own happiness?

Ever wished that you had done something different that would have changed the current present situation?

Ever said something that you could never take back?

etc... etc... etc...

I have... I quit ballet and music only to regret it... I fought with my close friend and until now we hardly talk ( not a word for 3 years)... People have spoken so badly of me in front of a superior so as to get something from me that they want so desperately... I've been hated by a whole group of people when all I was doing was helping them stay away from punishment...I have told numerous people the truth about what others are saying only to have them take it so negatively... I have regretted not expressing my true feelings... I've watched the one I treasured continue on with life... I've allowed him to find his own happiness... I've done so many things I wish I could just change... I've said too many things that I could not take back...

BUT IN ALL THESE REGRETS... I live only to find out that I actually do not regret them....

I've gone through so many experiences with a purpose... 

Yes... A PURPOSE...

That I may understand those that go through them... that I may be a source of strength and an example to others stating that these things should NEVER EVER PULL A PERSON DOWN!! The are the bones that have been broken for us to learn from... We only have so many bones that we can break... That's why we have to learn from others.. And I'm proud and SO SHOULD YOU that mine and your broken bones can be examples for others to learn from... Save their bones for other experiences...

NEVER GO ON WITH LIFE WITH REGRET! Look back and see what you have learnt from these experiences...believe me.. you will be amazed at how these painful experiences have allowed you to GROW...

Smiling with a heavy heart...

Walking through the door,
I enter a whole new world;
A world with a different view,
A world with different people...

In the past, experiencing horror,
I hoped that this new world would just be different;
Sadly that will never be the case,
For this world is exactly like the other.

I think I have a magnet in me,
A magnet that attracts people;
But not just anyone,
I attract certain kind of people.

In school,
In dance;
In National Service,
And now my new world.

WHY OH WHY!!!!
WHY DO I ATTRACT THEM!!!
If I accidently say something they say another,
They make it look like I'm the bad guy.

I choose to be neutral,
I didn't want to be on either side;
But people mistake me and guess what,
I JUST TURN OUT TO BE THE BAD GUY AGAIN!!!

What do you want me to do,
Butter up both sides???!!!
Boths sides has pros and cons,
And you expect me to choose based on these??!!!

There's a song that says,
We can never get the best out of 2 worlds;
We can only choose 1!!
And I choose neither!!!

I'll stick to 'my world',
The world I created long ago in my mind;
The world where nothing is impossible,
The world that I wish I could live in.

Because this stupid magnet in me,
This magnet makes people misunderstand me!
Makes people hate me even when it is others that misunderstood me!!
WHEN IT IS NOT MY FREAKING FAULT!!!

So I'll live in this world for now,
Bottling up as I go along;
Smiling at YOU with a heavy heart,
Smiling just to act like I'm not hurt.

Acting stupid is the stupidest thing to do,
But there is nothing else I can do but 'smile',
I hope one day...one day...
You will see that it is not my fault.....I choose to be neutral........

Even though YOU broke my heart......


* A poem bout part of my life... exaggerated the anger maybe a widdle iddle bit but yet... ^^ *

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Deng deng deng DENG!!

Da 1st Day of UNICOL life!!!

( unicol stands more University College...sounds more pro than college maaaaa )

Got up today at an unbeliveble time... sigh... ok.. a very normal time for people to get up but not for me!! I HAVE and HAD enough of getting up early... for 3 months I had to get up at 4.30 in the morning everyday!! sickening right...so well, I had to get up and bla bla bla and left the house and bla bla bla and ate breakfast with my dad at bangsar... @_@ I knew I should not have ordered milo and eat porridge.. too filling and I soon felt sick...@_@...

My dad droped me at Brickfields where I took a monorail all the way Imbi which is right outside Berjaya Times Square so well, just outside my collge la! Went up to 11th floor, waiting for people to gather then we registered and took our student ID card... my picture is soooo ugly... they stretched the picture so my head is now long horizontally...MAGNIFICIENT I know.. i know.. Then I went to make payment of my semester fees, and lined up to get my bag and order my shirt... sorry no pictures... They has Pink, Blue, Gree ( with pink designs ) and Orange... so I took green since it is more unique than pink and blue and nicer than orange ^^

Next was to the lecture hall, where they spoke and introduced the lecturers and we had tea break ( Kenny Roggers sponsored free MUFFINS!! ) then we broke into groups and I am in Uruguey ^^ played some ice breaking games like the Ha Ha game ( will teach you next time.. quite boring and weird ), One Dot game and murderer... Lunch, I went with a group of girls to the food court, ate chicken rice and drank yougurt drink and went up and we had another game that needs us to run throughout the whole college on the 11th and 14th floor... was quite fun though my captain was well... quite lazy person so I was doing most of the job...We at least got RM 10 voucher for borders ^^

The fun part comes now... We were suppose to take an english test to see if we needed to take part in an extra english program... they called out a few peoples' names and mine was in the list..shocking I know... we were brought to a room with a few and I mean FEW chairs and table and alot of floor space... We were then told...." YOU ALL ARE EXEMPTED FROM TAKING THE ENGLISH TEST FOR YOU HAVE SHOWED GOOD RESULTS IN YOUR ENGLISH EXAMINATION IN WHATEVER LEVEL!!! WHOOOOOOOOO!!!!"

OH YEAH OH YEAH!! So I got to go home like 2 and a half hours earlier!! ENGLISH! I LOVE YOU!! MUAAAXXXX!!!!!!

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LAMANIN!!!!!

What on earth is Lamanin? Lamanin, L-a-m-a-n-i-n very simply, is a protein cell in your body that literally holds your skin, muscles, organs, and everything else in your body together, it is literally the glue of your body. Now you're thinking, so? What does that have do with how fearfully and wonderfully I am made? The incredible thing about this protein cell is the fact that it is shaped like a cross. Yes, it's true, the protein cell that holds you together is in the shape of a cross. God made you fearfully, you didn't come from some ape, God planned you carefully, and holds you together with the cross shaped protein, Lamanin!!

Amazing right... This was preached during youth using a video sermon on How Great is Our God!! I was just left speechless after it.... To imagine that this protein cell is the cell that holds every single itsy bitsy part of our body together... and it is shaped in the shape of the cross on which our Lord our God was crucified on.... i have no words....

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A lil trip to my future???

( This may be a little trip but it hold a lot so it may be long.. but I assure you, you will not be bored )

YEAPS!! I went on a little trip today with my sister and mum to my future perhaps... or to be more precise a trip to where I maybe in the future ( college or more like university life ). Got up at bout 10 in the morning which is really nice since I get up bout 9.30 everyday... 1/2 an hour makes a BIG DIFFERENCE OK!! I just hate getting up in the morning...@_@... My mum had breakfast while my sis and I did not cause well... she just didn't buy any breakfast for us.. how nice right ^^...=.=... so got ready, bla bla bla, and bla bla bla and VRROOOMMM!! Off we go...................................................................................

Reached!!! Now.... Parking??? @_@ round round round the car park, driving while looking out, for a miserable parking lot, also cannot find HAIH!! ( row row row your boat tune please )... HALLELUJAH!!! PRAISE THE LORD FOR HIS MERCIES AND BLESSINGS UPON US!! Yeaps! we found a parking spot not too far from the escalators~~ Hmmmm ( staring at the floor directory )..

Mummy : Hmmm... mana ini college ah??

Everybody stare at the board...

Mei : 14th floor.

Vian : No la... 14 floor but section F...

Clicks on lift button...

Mei : ( stares at the board ) No laaaa... 14F means 14th floor la... the others also ma put 1F, 2F and others  ma... Oh...got girlfriend floor wan oh... GF floor wo... ooolala~~

DING...and up we go...

We stopped at almost every floor and we started at B2 so.. you can probably guess how long it took for us to get up there... And when we reached there... WAKAKAKA...T.T... the office was on the 11th floor...the 14th floor only had classrooms...down we go..T.T...

FINALLY we found the 'lobby' and met our speaker..erm..wait..wrong word...errr..the person that tells us all the stuff ok...Her name is Teh Ming Ming... reminds me of Nicole Tan from dance ^^...she told us bout how the this university started and other information bout the courses... OHH!! OMG!! I just remembered... I forgot to mention we are at Berjaya University =P...sorry my bad =D.... Mummy kept on asking questions which is not a bad thing at all unless you have 2 hungry daughters who are dying to eat... oh and the place is seriously like a hotel...it looks like a hotel, smells like one, sounds like one, has a feeling like one and well, i don't think I can taste a hotel but you get the idea...and it is cold too...VERY COLD!!!

After all the talking ( I loved the pattern painted on Ming Ming's nails...HEY! I was listening to what she said ok! ) she brought us on a little tour~ WHEEE!! The first placed I recognise was the Library... I don't know why but I just feel like reading all the books in there... Maybe it is a disease I caught while working in a book shop...oh well... from there she showed us the classrooms ( most classes I see have only 8 students at most! one classroom can fit max of 30 students ), meeting rooms ( for the events ppl to learn how to hold meetings ), ICT Labs, and a few more. The off to the tourism section which is more or less the same... the Cullinary side is on the 14th floor... and ooohh..the SMELL!!...the lady then poped the question... " Have you eaten lunch? " which by then my sister was having a headache and was more like a zombie walking around...

She asked us to have lunch there.. Yes... People from the cullinary side will serve lunch at the cafes there everyday ( today they are having final exams ) so we eat the food they cook. People from the hotel and corporates also go there to eat but mind you... it is fine dining for today... Let me introduce the menu for today sir/madame...

Bread and butter!! Not sure what the bread is called but DELICIOUS!! EXTREAMLY!!!

My Rockets Salad? Well, after I ate it at least... here is the description...

Thinly sliced pears and rocket lettuce, drizzled with sweet balsamic dressing, topped with parmesan cheese and toasted pine-nuts.... It is SCRUMPTIONS...for salad lovers ( NOT ME!! )

Chicken Involtini Au Vin Blanc

phew.. long name...ok..Succulent chicken rolled with dried appricots, flat parsley and bacon served on a bed of ratatouillie, accompanied with parsley potatoes and white wine sauce.... filling dish..ALL MEAT ON THE CHICKEN!

Finally dessert!! Citrus cheesecake...

Refreshing and delectable cheese cake, infused with orange, lime and ( something i can't read on the picture )served with citrus ( something something something ) and with chocolate butterfly.

Real nice if the serving was no so big... a bit jelak after eating too much...=P...

The rest of the day was just discussing the fees, buying a pair or jeans and slippers and going home in A BAD JAM!! Well, bad for my mum cuz well, she can't sleep while driving right?? ^^

OH OH!! And How to train your dragon is a GREAT SHOW!! The dragons are soooo cute...aaahhh.. I love dragons and dragonflies...aaaaaa ^^...

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p.s. This post was meant to be on the 31st of March but due to internet disconnection, the post is posted on the 1st of April...

First day at....Surabaya!!

Hi! Just came back from Surabaya, Indonesia like on Monday at about 1 something in the morning...YAWN... ^^ Went there for a dance competition ( as per usual ).. Had lotsa fun!! Here are some of the first day pictures ^^

Vini Vidi Vici Hotel^^

TRYING to look cool.. ^^~~

Edmund and I! I just LOVE Belman's PRADA shades!! ( p.s they are original )
Where to??
Middle oh the hotel! Cool right~~
Alex... watcha trying to do...
Maybelle..Alex and Muar ^^
Sexay See Wai!! and me ^^
Belman trying to be a spy?? ^^
Edmund and I! SQUEEEK!! I love the shades!!!
Alex and I ^^
Stanley and I ^^

CAUTION!! Pink hot chick!!!

Nice or naughty Gabby and i ^^~~~

Coco is so HOT!
Nice shot!!! Kenneth is seriously jumping!

PHEW!! too many to upload le~~~ You guys, if you want the photos please ask em from either me or Edmund cause seriously...way tooo many to upload slowly~~ will go craaazzzyy @_@

But these are some of em for the first day~~ Will upload more~~ HUGGIES!!

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I love earthquakes ^^

EARTHQUAKE DAY!!!
- Sis came back from Singapore ( studying there )!!

- The girls in the family decided to celebrate her belated belated birthday by going to SWENSEN'S!! WHEEE!!!

Su Ming and Su Vian! ^^


Mummy and I ^^


Su Ming's spaghetti!


My Sandwiches!!


Mummy's Pizza ^^


Su Vian's baked chicken with rice and loads of cheese!!


OUR EARTHQUAKES!! Are they not nice? Earthquakes ROCKS!!

Change of plans!!!

Lets see how much my plans for the holiday differed after like a couple of days... AHEM!!

Monday
7.30 - 10.00 : Basketball Practice
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice ( DID NOT ATTEND )
12.30 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Tuesday
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice
12.30 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Wednesday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheer leading practice ( CANNOT ATTEND! )
11.30 - 1.00 : Private dance class!!
1.00 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Thursday
7.30 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice ( LEAVING EARLY! )
11.30 - 1.00 : Private dance class!!
1.00 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Friday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice ( WILL NOT ATTEND )
12.30 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!
9.00 - 10.30 : Private dance class!!

Saturday
12.30 - 2.30 : Dance class!!
2.30 - 3.10 : Lunch
3.10 - ??? : Dance dance dance!!

Sunday
9.30 - 11.00 : Art Class!
3.00 - ????? : Dance practice!!


YEAH!! guess that is about it for my holiday... not much of a holiday cause after i come home from dance it is bathe sleep eat sleep... too tired...@_@

Oh...competitions to come for dance...

May 1- 3 : Penang!
July 10 - 12 : Surabaya ( Indonesia )
August 30 : Crystal Dance sport ( Shangri-La hotel )

CAN'T WAIT FOR EM!! Yet i can... hmm... not sure le... @_@ anywayz... i just have to practice practice and practice... ^^ DANCING ROXS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Holiday Plans!! WOOHOOO!!

Yeah!! Only a couple more days till holiday!! Well, fine... a one week break!! Here's my plan for about the whole week!! Oh and I will be attending a few lectures at KDU University College too!!
The reason why you will see that my schedule has dance everyday is because... my dance practices have yet to be arranged yet! So YEAH!! But I don't mind dancing everyday!! XD

Monday
7.30 - 10.00 : Basketball Practice!
2.00 - 3.00 : Mass Comm. ( Film & Photography )
3.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Tuesday
12.00 - 2.00 : Hospitality ( Tourism Industry )
2.00 - 4.00 : IT ( Multimedia Fun & Easy )
4.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Wednesday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training!
2.00 - 3.00 : Mass Comm. ( New Media )
3.00 - 6.00 : Culinary ( Food Production )
6.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Thursday
10.00 - 12.00 : Hospitality ( Introduction to German )
12.00 - 4.00 : Culinary ( Pastry )
4.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Friday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training!
10.30 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Saturday
1.00 - 4.30 : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!
5.00 - 7.30 : Basketball Practice!

Sunday
9.30 - 11.00 : Art Class!
3.30 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Monday
Back to SCHOOL!!...* groan *

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Choc Factory Visit ^^

As stated so clearly by the title, I visited Beryl's Choc. Factory not very long ago. The date of my visit is not popping out in my head so well, i went not long ago. ^^ I went there as a helper and photographer together with a group of kids from the Edison Explorer Academy. Use to be a student there so now i am too old so I go back as a helper. It is a class where kids from ages 6-12 learn very useful thinking skill in a very very very fun way. Back to the topic anyway...


The two teachers... like 5% of the kids... with their mums!!


We had to hire two buses to fit everyone in!! And it is a very nice bus!


Kids checking out which bus there are placed in!

The kids had groups of i think about 3-4 kids and 1 guardian. At the start of the trip they were given a quiz paper. It was part of the Wonka Challenge. This trip was an outing for the topic Charlie and The Chocolate Factory that is being held for 2 months. Some of the questions they already learnt it during classes. However, some of them they had to observe during the whole trip. I was in Aunty Amy (The founder of this academy )'s bus! The journey there took about 1/2 hour. Then...FINALLY we reached our destination!



The first thing i noticed was the big cacao bean! The factory looked more like a shop ( big one ) instead of a factory. Once we went in, we saw two shops on opposite sides in the shade selling... CHOCOLATES!! I just love milk choc. especially!! ~ slurp ~ BUT!! No time to buy stuff... i had to continue taking photos of the ultra excited kids..



We went up a flight of staircases and TADA! A door! We entered the door and it kinda smelled stuffy. I guess thats because they never really aired the room and i saw a big sign that told me I was just given a break from my job. It was a NO... sign and the big picture of a camera was there XD! Anyways, we went in and everyone got a sit except for me. Oh well, i guess i can stand. ^^ Then... BOOM! The electricity went out for like 5 mins and it came back. A lady then came in and gave everyone a brief talk about the factory and showed a slide show.

After all that, the doors on the other side opened and the smell!! The chocolate smell was overflowing and it was glorious! We went through the door into this corridor...on the walls there were like big boards showing the history of chocolate. It was said that the first people to discover the secret of cacao was the people during the classic period maya. I was mixed with water, pepper, and other spices as a frothy and spicy drink. Sounds disgusting to me though. ^^

After that, choc was a European symbol of wealth and power. Imagine our money as choc? I think i would be extra poor cause i will be eating everyone of em ^^ Then we went along into this room where they showed us all of beryl's different type of chocs. Some were in a shape of a bunny, egg, football and lots more. ^^ We continued by looking at the various ways of making choc. I am quite sure you have eaten chocolates that are round and have nuts right. Did you know that just to make them you put the nuts in something that looks like the machine to mix cement. Well, you just have to turn the thing, and the pipe in front of the opening will squirt out chocolate at it and it also acts as a blower to make sure the chocolates don't stick. ^^ Then they showed us the various types of packaging. Mostly done by machines of course.





Kids posing with a cow statue~~

We ended the whole trip at the choco factory by buying CHOCOLATES! I bought quite a bit for me and my family! SLURP!!! After that, back on the buses! And off to the next activity. Oh, before we left the choco factory the kids had to hand up their quiz papers! And A. Amy was marking it on the way back to see the final 11 groups that would be going to the next round.






The next round of the Wonka challenge! The kids had to guess how many chocolates there were in a big round bottle. The 6 groups that were closest to the answer will gooo to the next round!! We then had a short briefing for the parents on what Edison Explorers is but i shan't go into detail. Next round was wheel-burrow ^^ the kids had to pair up and at the starting line there are plates. And at the other end there were plates also, but with slices of lemon! I also love lemon! ^^ they had to bring their partners to the other side and pick up the lemon with their mouth and bring the lemon back to the other side again. There are 4 lemons for each group. And the fastest team will win. It was really funny to see them pick up the lemons and because they were rushing they did not make a U-turn but drag their partner with the lemon backwards. ^^ The prizes were amazing! RM 100 and about 100 famous Amos cookies!!!





I would love to continue but i guess i shouldn't make this too long winded ^^ hehe ^^ find out more next time ^^

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