Dance dance dance~~~

It has been just a few months since I participated in my first dance competition and also 18 days since i participated in my second!! ^^

The first dance competition was really fun ^^ It was a lil competition among my classmates ( dance ) and I ^^


From left : Nicole, Johnston, Coco, Stanley, the two lil gurls ^^, Natalie,
Bernard, Joy, David, Me , and Kenneth.

2 Reasons why we joined this mini thingy :~
i) To gain a new experience
ii) To entertain the guest at the Lion's Club Dinner Gathering ^^

Oh yes, this whole competition was purely latin. Just Cha Cha and Jive. ^^ Belman had make us practice over and over again... it was breathtaking and i mean really breathtaking as by the time we finished we were totally gasping for air... ^^ Before leaving for the place, a few of us had our make up on already ( one of em ) We got to the place and WOW!! The dance floor was really ' BIG '.... =.="... i mean it sarcastically... The people there were so stingy they did not want to on the air conditioner so we had to practice in that small area of floor in such heat!

People started coming in... very slowly so we all had to go back to the waiting room. We had touched up our make up and changed. Due to our item being one of the last few, we had to wait quite a while with NO DINNER!! foooooddddd~~~ sobx.... The guys got bored and started to play ' chi-ku-pak '... ( i don't know how to spell but pronounce it as u see it ) the loser was dared by the winner at the end of every round. It was really funny to see the guys doing funny funny things. Later on they started to play volleyball using their palms and a bottle i think. =.=".. wasting all their energy but they managed to warm up playing that funny game. ^^

Fast foward!! It was time to go compete!!!!!! Alot of them were sweating like crazy. I as per usual was slightly nervous yet excited ^^ hehe ^^ so on the floor we went!! Oh NOOOO!! Bernard and Natalie took our spot!!! NOOO!!! sigh~~ guess we have to move a little... was a lil worried that we might bang into them. But we did not!! ^^ The whole dance thing was like over in a split second!!!

We got back to the room all exhausted... now we started to worry bout the results but overall we were glad everything was over!! WHEEEEEEE!!

An hour later~~~~ * heart beating like really fast * The time is here... the time is now... We were called on stage!! I was a little nervous though i think it did not really show... ^^... however... when the MC pronounced my name wrongly i was so tempted to correct that person... GRRRRRRRRRRR!!! On my way up i kinda decided that i gained alot of experience here and i think that satisfied me more than enough ( i am pretty easy to please in a way )... ^^ They announced the 6th place... 5th place...4th place... and just by that i was overjoyed!! I did not think i would make the top 3!! XD i was seriously very very very happy i nearly cried but of course i did not... 3rd place.... by that time i was shivering... not because i was nervous but with excitement and satisfaction!! Wow!! I got 2nd placing!! I was really happy!!!



After being released from the stage some problem aroused but it was well taken care of ^^ I was very thankful and i thank God the most!! ^^ I prayed everyday that he would help me improve and that He would be my pillar of support and He was... ^^ i could feel His presence around me and i could imagine already, the wide smile on His face congratulating me ^^ I really wanted to cry tears of happiness ^^ but i decided not too =P... We had photo sessions and then the floors were open~~ We danced and danced and when it was time to go back everyone was dead tired by then ^^


From left : Belman ( Latin teacher ) , C.Y. , A. Joanne ( Ballroom teacher )
Nicole, Johnston, Coco, Stanley, 2 lil kids, Natalie, Bernard, Joy, David,
Me and Kenneth.


The lady in Gold insisted on taking photos with us... she was quite horrible when she danced...


From left : David, Nicole, Coco, lady in gold, Bernard, 2 kids, Stanley,
Kenneth, Joy, Natalie, Johnston, Me, and C.Y.


We're just having pure fun!! hehe ^^

PAST EVENTS OF MUAR LIFE!! f

Hey everyone...sorry for not posting for a while ^^ been busy ^^ and i mean BUZZZZZZYYY!!! ahax ^^ plus i don't really have anything happening now and i haven't been writing for a while, so i decided to post some pictures of my life in the past events ^^ i think oldest i would post is 2 years ago i think or max 3 years ago... not more than that ^^ so enjoy going through my photos ^^ oh and i will be doing this quite often ^^ today i will focus on the charity sale me and my friend held last year.. ^^


From left is Eunice, Amanda and I ^^ End of last year... we help a charity sale to help raise funds for PAWS!!! ( the organizing team )


One of the voluntary workers there... the dog's name is ROVER!!!


Volunteers at PAWS!!


Everyone they have a Dog of the month award! cool right ^^


A dog is not for Chinese New Year. Or for this year. A DOG IS FOR LIFE!! AMEN!!


The cats have very little room to roam around..poor thing...


A GOLDEN RETRIEVER !! I WANT!!!


THE SALE BEGINS!!!WAHOOOO!!


Sorting out stuff~~~~


SOFT TOYS!!


We collected RM 2070!!! not bad for first timers ^^

Well that is all for today ^^ i will be adding more soon. ^^ Look forward to my future post about my life and one of my recent events which would be the YOUTH ALPHA WEEKEND AWAY!! SEE YA SOON!! byeee~~~

:+: Su Mei :+:

All Alone...

Sitting at the corner alone,
With my feelings still unknown;
Children running all around,
While chains and locks I do they bound.

Laughter and giggles can I hear,
With nobody anywhere near;
How I wish to laugh along,
But I am left to sing alone a song.

Only colours and papers to be with me,
Where I can pour out my feelings you can't see;
Moody and unsociable I am you think,
But a fact in your head does not sink.

Envy and jealousy is my game,
But anger and unsociability is my fame;
To be understood is what I wish,
But it is like bare hands catching a fish.

We did not have A, B, C,
To choose our lives you see;
This is how we autistic feel,
With our feelings within a seal. ~ Su Mei

Hey, don't get the wrong idea here. I am so not autistic. I just decided to try out if i can write in another person's point of view that not many can see. The first stanza tells us about how autistic people or to be more specific autistic kids feel. They sometimes feel that they are bound to walls with chains and locks so tightly that there is no way to break free. The chains and locks represent the difficulty in expressing. The second stanza is very closely connected to this as the persona sees and hears people laughing and giggling. However, because he is bound by his difficulty in expressing he can't show any sign of laughter. It is as though you want to run to the other wall on the opposite side but because you are chained to the wall, you can't move not a single step. The persona says he is left to sing alone a song because people think he is unsociable so they leave him out of the group.



In stanza 3, it tells us of the ways these autistic people express their feelings. It is a stated fact in life that when you loose something, you gain something else. In this poem it tells us that the persona is talented in drawing and through his drawings will you experience his inner thoughts. Autistic people are mostly gifted in either music, art and so on. They do not have the ability to express inner thoughts but they have something else instead. Because they cannot use words to express, therefore they use music and art to express it. Amazing right. ^^

Stanza 4, I am not stating that these autistic children are devilish and only know how to be jealous of others. I am stating the feelings they have sometimes towards others. They are jealous of the other normals kids that are able to laugh, cry, show anger. They are jealous because they can't express it well. They want to but can't. They only wish to be understood by other people. But it is a fact that sometimes we think we understand an autistic person but in actual fact you don't.

Finally, the persona says that he and his fellow autistic people did not have any choice. They were brought into the world like that and there is nothing that can change that fact.

Autism (say: aw-tih-zum) causes kids to experience the world differently from the way most other kids do. It's hard for kids with autism to talk with other people and express themselves using words. Kids who have autism usually keep to themselves and many can't communicate without special help.

They also may react to what's going on around them in unusual ways. Normal sounds may really bother someone with autism — so much so that the person covers his or her ears. Being touched, even in a gentle way, may feel uncomfortable.

Kids with autism often can't make connections that other kids make easily. For example, when someone smiles, you know the smiling person is happy or being friendly. But a kid with autism may have trouble connecting that smile with the person's happy feelings.

A kid who has autism also has trouble linking words to their meanings. Imagine trying to understand what your mom is saying if you didn't know what her words really mean. It is doubly frustrating then if a kid can't come up with the right words to express his or her own thoughts.

Autism causes kids to act in unusual ways. They might flap their hands, say certain words over and over, have temper tantrums, or play only with one particular toy. Most kids with autism don't like changes in routines. They like to stay on a schedule that is always the same. They also may insist that their toys or other objects be arranged a certain way and get upset if these items are moved or disturbed.

If someone has autism, his or her brain has trouble with an important job: making sense of the world. Every day, your brain interprets the sights, sounds, smells, and other sensations that you experience. If your brain couldn't help you understand these things, you would have trouble functioning, talking, going to school, and doing other everyday stuff. Kids can be mildly affected by autism, so that they only have a little trouble in life, or they can be very affected, so that they need a lot of help.

But, a person is still a person, no matter how insignificant or how different he can be, he has feelings. We as normal people shouldn't be cold to them but instead welcome them with warm arms. We get frustrated when we are not understood so imagine their pain.

( Please already read the poem Daring Tears by Craig Romkema )

:+: Su Mei :+:

My FIRST JOB at WWF in year '07! Was I lucky or unlucky?

Cool breeze from the air conditioners above me,
Oh, in the cold, shivering are my knees,
The rough surfaces of the tiles under me,
Dragging your feet, you will hear the sound of bees,
To my left, i see files and files,
The sight of them takes away the smiles,
Staring out the clear windows,
I see a busy car park down below,
I hear a bird chirping,
But overpowering it are the sounds of honking,
Busy, Busy, Buzzing employees,
Their fingers type with speed on the keyboard keys,
But worse of all, to my right, the stacks of shirts waiting to be packed,labeled and sent,
Oh, the pain felt from the 'dent' on my head.

"This will be a piece of cake, i will have no problems, that sounds very easy," these were some of the sentences i would say to myself when i was offered a job by WWF to help package their shirts to be sent all around Malaysia. You do know what WWF is don't you? Well, if you don't, i will tell you.It stands for World Wide Fund for Nature. Thats right! What i feel about nature is like what a mouse feels for CHEESE!

Anyway, back to the original topic for today. My cousin who is an employee at WWF came up to me one point in time recently to offer me a job at WWF. She said all i had to do was package all the shirts that were ordered from all around Malaysia. Hearing the sound of money, my ear immediately erased part of the sentence mentioning that the orders were from all around Malaysia. It is not that I just love money but I just enjoy getting as much as I can so that I won't have to always depend on my parents when i want something. Plus, i have never worked in that kind of office so i thought why not give it a shot. That was the beginning of my misfortune.

I went to work on the first day, i saw the Pyramids of Giza when i looked to my right and saw the stack of shirts to be packed. My mouth had already fallen to the ground, but i decided that maybe i should not judge the toughness of this job by just looking at the pile of shirts i have to pack, so i just picked up my mouth and started working. At the end of my first day, being a 'slightly' hot headed person, i started complaining. I complained about the List of orders not being in alphabetical order, i complained about the fact that no one was helping me, i complained about nearly everything i could think of. My head felt as though an arrow just shot straight through my head. I was tired and i could not do anything so i just went to sleep. The following day, the same thing repeated, and repeated, and repeated. By the fourth day, i finished the pile of shirts i first saw on my first day. I was so happy i 'hit the ceiling' but i knocked my head on the ground when they told me i had to type more air way bills for more packages and a this time i saw the Leaning Tower of Pisa.

After about a week of working there i finally finished all my work and i would get my pay check soon. From then on i knew that i was not the type to work in such places as it is a pain in the neck. I decided that i would hopefully work in a more 'peaceful' environment.

I read it from another place but this is the only picture i can get to show.

When i an assignment to read on the story Moon by Chaim Potok and Iqbal Masih by David L. Parker from stolen Dreams : Portraits of Working Children, i thought that this will be just a story. However, tears started to flow from my eyes down my cheek, wetting my shirt as i read the story. Admitting it, i am a lachrymose whenever i watch,see,read or hear sad things and even touching something that has a sad memory. This story just moved me as i read on how children at the mere age of 4 are sold away to work at carpet factories. Imagine being sold away by you own family. How painful it is to part with your only blood relative, but i also admire these people that they are tough. Their problems are like a tsunami compared to my little wave yet they do not complain as much as i do.

I knew all along that i was lucky to be born in a loving family, to be able to be educated well, to have to opportunity to join anything i please and to have to say in what i do, but, maybe i have not been thankful enough yet. I compare my situation to the Pakistani children. They get so much less than i do yet they smile and they are so joyful. They neither have the education i have, not a loving family, or a say in what they do, yet they are so thankful for what they have.

Thinking back, my experience working with WWF may actually be a good experience. I got to experience working in an office that not everyone can get, i learnt how to use a typewriter, i learnt to work fast, but most of all, i learnt a lesson that will change me. I learnt that i should be patient, be happy when i am able to help others, and most of all, i should be thankful.

I was brought to this Earth for a reason. I was given a goal in life when i took my first breath. My experience working is just one of the hardships i will have to face in life. I cannot rush to reach my goal as i can only see so much of my future. This is just a stepping stone and i am glad i have passed it. The hardships i will face in the future will be much worse than this so i will have to take it slowly and PATIENTLY.

When running a marathon, we...
Pant, pant, run, run, pant, pant, run, run
When we study, we...
Study,study,stress,stress,study, study, stress, stress
All we're doing is all wrong
No wonder we always sing a sad song
We always over do all things
Doing this is right, we think
Chill,chill, do not rush,
it is not the end you know
sprint, jog, sprint,jog
study, rest, study, rest
And at the end, push with all you have left,
don't look right, don't look left,
focus on your goal,
to satisfy your soul
Do this and you'll be at the top
in 1 piece
1 breath
but with a 1000 smiles!

If everyone in the world started becoming more thankful, this world would change for the better. No more wars, no more torture. Just peace and harmony.

I may not get many opportunities to work for money at the moment, but i have all the time to help the needy.I do quite a lot of voluntary work often but maybe i can still do more. By decreasing the time i use to play computer games and watch Japanese Animations, i can spend more time helping others who need my help. Packaging is definitely not one of my strengths. But i was born with gifts and these gifts are to create a better future of others as well as myself. I will use them to the MAX to create a better future for everyone and i will try to make a difference in the world. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! Never give up on something, miracles happen everyday.

( This was one of my journal entries at the start of year 2008 As for the two stories. I advise everyone to read it. I don't usually like these type of stories but it was really touching. ^^)

:+: Su Mei :+:

CLEAN UP YER DECK!

Clean up Yer' deck or ya'll be walking the PLANK!
Hand in your homework or you'll be getting a SPANK!
Orders, orders, orders,
Such annoying orders,
Getting us to do more work everyday,
NO! we just wish to say.

We never get to rest,
And they complain we don't get best!
Row, row, do not stop!
Work, work, do not stop!
Such horrifying words we hear all day,
How we wish to dance at the bay.

Free from everything,
All we do is sing,
Living a joyful life,
With a wonderful wife. ( Future )

I guess you can tell what the whole poem is about i suppose. It is really quite obvious. Oh and please ignore the wife thingy. I just had trouble thinking of a rhyme for life. ^^

:+: Su Mei :+: