SePaR@+E W0rLd$

The paths I've walked...for a purpose

2011-09-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ever 'studied' something for years and then just quit cause you 'hated' it, only to end up regretting your decision?

Ever fought with your really close friend and end up not talking for like years?

Ever been back-stabbed by people just so that they can climb over you to get something they want?

Ever been hated by people when all you're doing is for their own good?

Ever told someone the truth about what others think about them only to have them hate you?

Ever wished that you had told them how you feel rather than keeping it in?

Ever watched the one you love from afar... never going near?

Ever break up a relationship so that your precious person can find their own happiness?

Ever wished that you had done something different that would have changed the current present situation?

Ever said something that you could never take back?

etc... etc... etc...

I have... I quit ballet and music only to regret it... I fought with my close friend and until now we hardly talk ( not a word for 3 years)... People have spoken so badly of me in front of a superior so as to get something from me that they want so desperately... I've been hated by a whole group of people when all I was doing was helping them stay away from punishment...I have told numerous people the truth about what others are saying only to have them take it so negatively... I have regretted not expressing my true feelings... I've watched the one I treasured continue on with life... I've allowed him to find his own happiness... I've done so many things I wish I could just change... I've said too many things that I could not take back...

BUT IN ALL THESE REGRETS... I live only to find out that I actually do not regret them....

I've gone through so many experiences with a purpose...

Yes... A PURPOSE...

That I may understand those that go through them... that I may be a source of strength and an example to others stating that these things should NEVER EVER PULL A PERSON DOWN!! The are the bones that have been broken for us to learn from... We only have so many bones that we can break... That's why we have to learn from others.. And I'm proud and SO SHOULD YOU that mine and your broken bones can be examples for others to learn from... Save their bones for other experiences...

NEVER GO ON WITH LIFE WITH REGRET! Look back and see what you have learnt from these experiences...believe me.. you will be amazed at how these painful experiences have allowed you to GROW...

Solve this riddle~

2011-05-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

Busy like a bee~

2011-04-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

wow.. i think i can consider this blog dead? O.O haven't touched it since last year XD... on the other hand, i have been updating the other blog ^^ guess i'm better at talking about other things rather than myself ^^ hehe ^^ If you haven't seen my other blog, PLEASE DO! XD It is called D@iLy Do!nG$! You can access it via http://simply-sweet-and-simple.blogspot.com ^^ enjoy it~ Please do give feed backs and em.. if it is ok for me to request, when you post on my chat please do note which blog you're viewing cuz i'm not quite sure the feedback goes to which as the chat is linked to both my blogs ^^ THANKS PPL!! You're the best!!

Kiss~~
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Oh MY LORD!!!

2010-10-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

I never knew so many people viewed my blog @_@"" just found the stats button on my dashboard!!! Thx people out there ^^~~ This blog will remain as my personal blog while the other blog i have started since yesterday will be my project blog ^^~~

INTRODUCING....

D@iLy Do!nG$... Simply-Sweet-and-Simple

Unlike this blog where I post my experiences ( though I rarely do it), this new blog will be my writings on personal opinions, giving personal advises, presenting to you must try cooking and baking recipes, book, music and movie reviews and many other daily doings ^^~~ So if you happen to be browsing through here, take a stop by http://simply-sweet-and-simple.blogspot.com ^^~~

Huggies and Kisses
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Super Mega Update!!

2010-08-01T20:32:00.001+08:00

Heyz!! Been like forever since I last updated Bloggie..not good not good... cannot become like Tan Choon Wei ( never update his blog =P ).... Here is my 100 excuses why I haven't updated my blog....

1. Been busy with Unicol ( DUH )
2. Been busy practicing for and performing 180 The Musical.
3. Studying for finals.
4. Been having a rough time at unicol.
5. Just didn't have any inspiration to write.
6. Been playing a new online game.
7. Been only touching my Facebook Account.
8. Been thinking of another 92 more excuses for not updating my blog.
9. Still need 91 more.
10. OK I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So here are the titles of my coming posts..... in other words...a preview of the future!! Isn't that awesome!!! HAHAHAHAhahahaaaaaaaa... ( fine i know this is lame..)

1. 180 The Musical performance ( How we got there and How we survived!!!! )

2. Behind the Mask, Beyond the 4 Walls.

3. A Memorable Service Experience

4. Mocktail presentation.

5. I have these words written on my face, " Don't worry, you can rely on me "

6. Who is the new guy in town???

In actual fact, there are many more things I have to update you with, such as my sudden craze over wine knowledge, coffee knowledge too...my die die need to bake personality also XD and loads more.. but I'll just start with these 6 coming post... for those who haven't met in me a while and have not gotten any news from me, look out for my post on " Who is the new guy in town??? " *wink* you'll know why later.. till then..HUGGIES and KISSES!!
xoxo
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Smiling with a heavy heart...

2010-05-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

Walking through the door,
I enter a whole new world;
A world with a different view,
A world with different people...

In the past, experiencing horror,
I hoped that this new world would just be different;
Sadly that will never be the case,
For this world is exactly like the other.

I think I have a magnet in me,
A magnet that attracts people;
But not just anyone,
I attract certain kind of people.

In school,
In dance;
In National Service,
And now my new world.

WHY OH WHY!!!!
WHY DO I ATTRACT THEM!!!
If I accidently say something they say another,
They make it look like I'm the bad guy.

I choose to be neutral,
I didn't want to be on either side;
But people mistake me and guess what,
I JUST TURN OUT TO BE THE BAD GUY AGAIN!!!

What do you want me to do,
Butter up both sides???!!!
Boths sides has pros and cons,
And you expect me to choose based on these??!!!

There's a song that says,
We can never get the best out of 2 worlds;
We can only choose 1!!
And I choose neither!!!

I'll stick to 'my world',
The world I created long ago in my mind;
The world where nothing is impossible,
The world that I wish I could live in.

Because this stupid magnet in me,
This magnet makes people misunderstand me!
Makes people hate me even when it is others that misunderstood me!!
WHEN IT IS NOT MY FREAKING FAULT!!!

So I'll live in this world for now,
Bottling up as I go along;
Smiling at YOU with a heavy heart,
Smiling just to act like I'm not hurt.

Acting stupid is the stupidest thing to do,
But there is nothing else I can do but 'smile',
I hope one day...one day...
You will see that it is not my fault.....I choose to be neutral........

Even though YOU broke my heart......

* A poem bout part of my life... exaggerated the anger maybe a widdle iddle bit but yet... ^^ *

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Fears of our weaknesses....

2010-05-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

"SOME ( not all ) humans that live in the darkness of their weakness tend to remain there due to their lack of confidence or ignorance about how terrible their current situation is. However, when a supporting hand reaches out to them, trying to knock sense into them and pull them into light they just retreat back into their dark cave. They remain stubborn!!They think that remainding in darkness would not affect their future! WRONG!!! People, if we continue to think this way, then we will never master our weaknesses. We will NEVER come out and see the light! And when the future comes, I assure you, you will regret not taking up the challenge in the past to master your weaknesses. SO STEP UP!! Take up the challenge to master every weakness you can possibly master and you will not regret doing so."

I decided to start my bloggie again after such a long time~ ^^ and I just started it with a post I posted on facebook just a moment ago. It is about a serious matter that has just struck me hard and I thought I should give my opinions on it.

Weaknesses. Who doesn't have them? If you don't then 'WOW!!', you're probably the 1st perfect human to walk on Earth after Jesus. EVERYBODY has weaknesses, whether they know it or not. Being afraid of something is a weakness. Being unable to do something is a weakness. Being unable to perform something well is a weakness. And many more...

It is not the fact that we have weaknesses that struck me but how we react to it. We react to our strengths by showing them off and improving them. We tell people about our strengths but not our weaknesses. We try to forget about our weaknesses. We shun them. We ignore them. Or we just don't try hard to master them.

WHY??!! Why do we work so hard on our strengths yet don't even spend time to put extra effort to improve ( i not even saying master ) our weaknesses?? For example, if I am bad at writing, and when my teachers try to help me, I stay stubborn as a donkey and curse the teacher instead. Tell me, how will I ever improve in writing? If you tell me that just by ignoring the teacher I will improve then I don't see the reason for teachers to exist. Why do we not appreciate the help provided to us to help us improve in our weaknesses? These helpers ( whether teachers, friends, family..etc ) do not expect you to repay them at all. Free service. And who does not like free service? Why do we shun these people away... the people that are just trying their very best to knock sense into our thick skulls that weaknesses is not something negative.

WEAKNESSES is something we need and is something I would consider positve. If everyone was good at everything, then what is the point in life? We study to gain knowlege cause we don't own enough knowledge. We practice our sports cause we can never be 100% good in it. Everything we do in life is because of our weaknesses. Fine, a simple one. We cook or buy food because we are unable to produce food ourselves. Unless you rather starve than to take a little effort to get food.

If you can put effort into getting food for yourselves, or walking to the toilet just to pass motion, then why can't you use the same effort to improve your other weaknesses. Like lack in confidence, lack in certain skills, or lack in your personality too. It doesn't take much to work on our weaknesses. It takes only a heart with will to produce the desire and energy and enthusiasm to work on our weaknesses. If you lack in confidence, but have a strong will to be more confident, believe me, just the will in your heart can make a little difference but then again practice is needed. Nothing comes free. We don't get free oxygen too you know. We pay the trees for producing oxygen for us by giving them carbon dioxide.

The only thing I know that comes free, is the help and heart and love from the people around us. They are always there supporting you. Not judging you for how you look, or your background but who you are. Who God created you to be. These people are the ones who will give you a bonus boost to one day master your weaknesses. Your strength may be their weakness in return. So vice versa you can now help them in return for them helping you.

"SO STEP UP!! Take up the challenge to master every weakness you can possibly master and you will not regret doing so." Remember, a glass may be half empty, yet half full. How will you choose to see your weaknesses? How will you deal with them? Think before you answer.

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Deng deng deng DENG!!

2010-04-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

Da 1st Day of UNICOL life!!!

( unicol stands more University College...sounds more pro than college maaaaa )

Got up today at an unbeliveble time... sigh... ok.. a very normal time for people to get up but not for me!! I HAVE and HAD enough of getting up early... for 3 months I had to get up at 4.30 in the morning everyday!! sickening right...so well, I had to get up and bla bla bla and left the house and bla bla bla and ate breakfast with my dad at bangsar... @_@ I knew I should not have ordered milo and eat porridge.. too filling and I soon felt sick...@_@...

My dad droped me at Brickfields where I took a monorail all the way Imbi which is right outside Berjaya Times Square so well, just outside my collge la! Went up to 11th floor, waiting for people to gather then we registered and took our student ID card... my picture is soooo ugly... they stretched the picture so my head is now long horizontally...MAGNIFICIENT I know.. i know.. Then I went to make payment of my semester fees, and lined up to get my bag and order my shirt... sorry no pictures... They has Pink, Blue, Gree ( with pink designs ) and Orange... so I took green since it is more unique than pink and blue and nicer than orange ^^

Next was to the lecture hall, where they spoke and introduced the lecturers and we had tea break ( Kenny Roggers sponsored free MUFFINS!! ) then we broke into groups and I am in Uruguey ^^ played some ice breaking games like the Ha Ha game ( will teach you next time.. quite boring and weird ), One Dot game and murderer... Lunch, I went with a group of girls to the food court, ate chicken rice and drank yougurt drink and went up and we had another game that needs us to run throughout the whole college on the 11th and 14th floor... was quite fun though my captain was well... quite lazy person so I was doing most of the job...We at least got RM 10 voucher for borders ^^

The fun part comes now... We were suppose to take an english test to see if we needed to take part in an extra english program... they called out a few peoples' names and mine was in the list..shocking I know... we were brought to a room with a few and I mean FEW chairs and table and alot of floor space... We were then told...." YOU ALL ARE EXEMPTED FROM TAKING THE ENGLISH TEST FOR YOU HAVE SHOWED GOOD RESULTS IN YOUR ENGLISH EXAMINATION IN WHATEVER LEVEL!!! WHOOOOOOOOO!!!!"

OH YEAH OH YEAH!! So I got to go home like 2 and a half hours earlier!! ENGLISH! I LOVE YOU!! MUAAAXXXX!!!!!!

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LAMANIN!!!!!

2010-04-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

What on earth is Lamanin? Lamanin, L-a-m-a-n-i-n very simply, is a protein cell in your body that literally holds your skin, muscles, organs, and everything else in your body together, it is literally the glue of your body. Now you're thinking, so? What does that have do with how fearfully and wonderfully I am made? The incredible thing about this protein cell is the fact that it is shaped like a cross. Yes, it's true, the protein cell that holds you together is in the shape of a cross. God made you fearfully, you didn't come from some ape, God planned you carefully, and holds you together with the cross shaped protein, Lamanin!!

Amazing right... This was preached during youth using a video sermon on How Great is Our God!! I was just left speechless after it.... To imagine that this protein cell is the cell that holds every single itsy bitsy part of our body together... and it is shaped in the shape of the cross on which our Lord our God was crucified on.... i have no words....

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Countdown!!!

2010-04-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

3 more days till I stop work!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!! Well, at least work was not so boring as the last few weeks~~ Got to do some sorting of books unlike the usual job of SITTING AT THE SHRINK WRAP MACHINES!!! Thank God for the magazine people who had to use the machines after my break!! *in heaven*

Hoping to be able to have private latin class on Thursday... and the following week I will go to Taiping for a 2 day trip to bring my grandma down... WHEEEEEEEE~~~~~ XD

CAN"T WAIT AT ALL!!!

HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY!!!

TADA!! And the path is chosen....

2010-04-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

MY FUTURE

DIPLOMA IN HOSPITALITY MANAGEMENT

A lil trip to my future???

2010-04-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

( This may be a little trip but it hold a lot so it may be long.. but I assure you, you will not be bored )

YEAPS!! I went on a little trip today with my sister and mum to my future perhaps... or to be more precise a trip to where I maybe in the future ( college or more like university life ). Got up at bout 10 in the morning which is really nice since I get up bout 9.30 everyday... 1/2 an hour makes a BIG DIFFERENCE OK!! I just hate getting up in the morning...@_@... My mum had breakfast while my sis and I did not cause well... she just didn't buy any breakfast for us.. how nice right ^^...=.=... so got ready, bla bla bla, and bla bla bla and VRROOOMMM!! Off we go...................................................................................

Reached!!! Now.... Parking??? @_@ round round round the car park, driving while looking out, for a miserable parking lot, also cannot find HAIH!! ( row row row your boat tune please )... HALLELUJAH!!! PRAISE THE LORD FOR HIS MERCIES AND BLESSINGS UPON US!! Yeaps! we found a parking spot not too far from the escalators~~ Hmmmm ( staring at the floor directory )..

Mummy : Hmmm... mana ini college ah??

Everybody stare at the board...

Mei : 14th floor.

Vian : No la... 14 floor but section F...

Clicks on lift button...

Mei : ( stares at the board ) No laaaa... 14F means 14th floor la... the others also ma put 1F, 2F and others ma... Oh...got girlfriend floor wan oh... GF floor wo... ooolala~~

DING...and up we go...

We stopped at almost every floor and we started at B2 so.. you can probably guess how long it took for us to get up there... And when we reached there... WAKAKAKA...T.T... the office was on the 11th floor...the 14th floor only had classrooms...down we go..T.T...

FINALLY we found the 'lobby' and met our speaker..erm..wait..wrong word...errr..the person that tells us all the stuff ok...Her name is Teh Ming Ming... reminds me of Nicole Tan from dance ^^...she told us bout how the this university started and other information bout the courses... OHH!! OMG!! I just remembered... I forgot to mention we are at Berjaya University =P...sorry my bad =D.... Mummy kept on asking questions which is not a bad thing at all unless you have 2 hungry daughters who are dying to eat... oh and the place is seriously like a hotel...it looks like a hotel, smells like one, sounds like one, has a feeling like one and well, i don't think I can taste a hotel but you get the idea...and it is cold too...VERY COLD!!!

After all the talking ( I loved the pattern painted on Ming Ming's nails...HEY! I was listening to what she said ok! ) she brought us on a little tour~ WHEEE!! The first placed I recognise was the Library... I don't know why but I just feel like reading all the books in there... Maybe it is a disease I caught while working in a book shop...oh well... from there she showed us the classrooms ( most classes I see have only 8 students at most! one classroom can fit max of 30 students ), meeting rooms ( for the events ppl to learn how to hold meetings ), ICT Labs, and a few more. The off to the tourism section which is more or less the same... the Cullinary side is on the 14th floor... and ooohh..the SMELL!!...the lady then poped the question... " Have you eaten lunch? " which by then my sister was having a headache and was more like a zombie walking around...

She asked us to have lunch there.. Yes... People from the cullinary side will serve lunch at the cafes there everyday ( today they are having final exams ) so we eat the food they cook. People from the hotel and corporates also go there to eat but mind you... it is fine dining for today... Let me introduce the menu for today sir/madame...

Bread and butter!! Not sure what the bread is called but DELICIOUS!! EXTREAMLY!!!

My Rockets Salad? Well, after I ate it at least... here is the description...

Thinly sliced pears and rocket lettuce, drizzled with sweet balsamic dressing, topped with parmesan cheese and toasted pine-nuts.... It is SCRUMPTIONS...for salad lovers ( NOT ME!! )

Chicken Involtini Au Vin Blanc

phew.. long name...ok..Succulent chicken rolled with dried appricots, flat parsley and bacon served on a bed of ratatouillie, accompanied with parsley potatoes and white wine sauce.... filling dish..ALL MEAT ON THE CHICKEN!

Finally dessert!! Citrus cheesecake...

Refreshing and delectable cheese cake, infused with orange, lime and ( something i can't read on the picture )served with citrus ( something something something ) and with chocolate butterfly.

Real nice if the serving was no so big... a bit jelak after eating too much...=P...

The rest of the day was just discussing the fees, buying a pair or jeans and slippers and going home in A BAD JAM!! Well, bad for my mum cuz well, she can't sleep while driving right?? ^^

OH OH!! And How to train your dragon is a GREAT SHOW!! The dragons are soooo cute...aaahhh.. I love dragons and dragonflies...aaaaaa ^^...

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p.s. This post was meant to be on the 31st of March but due to internet disconnection, the post is posted on the 1st of April...

Wishing upon a star~

2010-02-15T12:02:00.001+08:00

A poem I wrote at camp~~ Enjoy.. ( click the picture to view )

1st January of 2010!!

2010-01-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

Blessed New Year EVERYBODY!!!

May this year be a fruitful one!!

With the abundance of blessings from the Lord Almighty!!

May His hand guide us as we walk this rocky path of Life!!

May His angels protect us from all evil doings!!

May His grace fall upon us as we live our daily lives!!

May the fruits of the Spirit continue to grow in us!!

May we be salt and light to our people!!

May we honour, work and serve based on the 10 commandments!!

May we move towards the dream of a TRANSFORMED SOCIETY!!

Only 2 more days before I depart to Kuala Kubu Bharu for National Service! Excited but not excited.. ^^ quite neutral ^^ I will try to update my blog there... Maybe I can go to CyberCafe after church on Sundays when they bring us to town~ If not then you will hear from me when I come back on Chinese New Year!!

Last but not least...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOON WEI!!!!

May the Lord have wonderous plans for you this year!!

May it be a successful one as you step into college life!!

May He shower blessings upon every inch of your life~

May He guide you as you walk step by step into adulthood!!

Hope becoming a year older made you a year wiser! ^^ hehe ^^

BLESSED BIRTHDAY CHOON WEI!!

Huggies

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Thanks!!!

2009-12-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

AHEM!.. THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME BeFORE AND DURING AND AFTER MY BIRTHDAY!! HUGGIES!!! sooo happy ^^

BEFORE!! ( SMSES )

* Aaron Lou! ( 21st Dec..10.51 a.m. )

* Natalie Tan ( 21st Dec...11.40 p.m )

DURING ( SMSES )

* Wen Jiat ( 12.16 a.m. )

* Jasmine ( 12.55.a.m )

* Choon Wei ( 6.36 a.m...came from aus!!Thanks for rememberin..hugs )

* Ray ( 9.02 a.m )

* Mun Kitt ( 12.53 p.m )

* Aaron Lou AGAIN ^^ ( 2.23 p.m. )
* Ian!!!! ( 3.13 p.m )

* Shien Ni ( 3.26 p.m )

* Crystal Loh ( 8.12 p.m )

* Maybelle and Kenneth ( 9.46 p.m )

* May Ling (10.58 p.m. )

* Debbie, Eunice, Pauline and Family ( 11.05 p.m )

DURING ( Call )

* JEANNETTE!! hearts you! ( She called at 2.22 p.m.!! )

* Adele and Dionne ( sorry i could not answer!! but thanks kids!! MUAX )

DURING ( face to face )

* Su Vian

* Su Ming

* Mummy!

* Papa!!

DURING ( Facebook )

* Sam!

* Lydia

* Marrisa

* Daryll

* Shen Jian

* Edmund

* David

* Chee Hong

* Huai Poh

* Sarah

* Miu Shan

* Winnie

* Sonia

* Mae

* Ben-ee

* Wilson Chew

* Ling ling!

* Dionne

* Kerry

* Josie

* Dewgem

* Vivian Tay

* Yih Ling

* Shien Ni

* Adele

* Debbie

* Rachel

* Pauline

* Alex Yee

AFTER ( facebook )

* Ge-ee and Sa-ee

* Kelly Ping

THANKS EVERYONE!! Muaxxxx!! sooo happie!!! SQUEEEEK!! Your wishes really make me happy since I was sick and quite sick and I could only see the facebook messages later on when I got to use to laptop as I was in Penang on holiday ^^ yeah...having bad food poisoning on your birthday and holiday is not what you would want... take my word for it ^^~ THANKS again guys!! love you all!!

HUGGIES from the EVER GRATEFUL!!

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Welcome to da FAMILY!!

2009-12-09T20:57:00.002+08:00

Bought a dog today~~

WHEEE!!

I mean seriously... I bought a doggie!!! It is a hound..ngeh ngeh

It is very furry and huggable!!

I LOVE IT!!

It's name is....

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COOZEES!!!

Originally it was Cozees but Coo. sounds nicer than Co. so it became

COOZEES!!

It is a dog so don't get mad it you thought it was a real dog~~

" I am actually a hot and cold doggie pack! There is a pack of beans in me that you can put in the freezer or microwave to heat or cool it~ Then you put it in a plastic bag and put it back in me tummy~ Then all you gotta do it HUG ME!! I am cute, innocent and soo huggable!! So HUG ME!! " says Coozees~

I saw it at Book Xcess when I went there today~ Bought more books again ^^ As we were about to pay and go off, Su Ming, my 2nd sister saw it and in a box and took it out...We were saying how cute it was when Jaclynn told us that it was a cold and hot doggie pack ( or at least I call it that )

Mummy thought it would be useful for me who usually gets bad period pains~ So Mummy bought for only RM 29.90!!

So WELCOME TO DA FAMILY, COOZEES!! MUAXX!!

huggies!!

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F-R-E-E!!!

2009-12-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

I am FREE!!

Oh My GOSH!!!!!

I can't believe it!!

WOOOOHOOOO!!!

* the scenery in my mind~~ *

OOOO YEAH BABY!!

Exam is Buh bye~

I feel so LAZY...

Yet I feel so HIGH!!

No more boring books!!

No more ugly uniforms!!

No more catching crooks!! ( prefect ma~ )

No more filling forms!!

I am FREE!! FREE!! FREE!!

No more behind bars!!

I am HAPPY!! HAPPY!! HAPPY!!

I'm jumping up and down!!

I am now so crazy~

I cannot even rhyme...

But who says poems are perfect?

Not me of course, DUH!

I am just so happy~

My mind just goes blank!

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I told you my mind is blank!!

HUGGIES

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Eternal Snow

2009-12-07T00:08:00.005+08:00

How long has it been since I fell in love with you?

Kimi wo suki ni natte Dorekurai tatsu no kaNA?

My feelings only increase

Kimochi Fukurande yuku bakari de

Will you notice them

Kimi wa Kono omoi kidzuiteiru no kana?

Even though I've never once put them into words?

Ichido mo kotoba ni wa Shitenai kedo

Like the snow, they just

Yuki no youni Tada shizukani

Quietly keep accumulating

Furitsumori Tsudzukete yuku

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels

Hold me tight Konna omoi nara

I didn't want to know

Dareka wo suki ni naru kimochi

What it was like to be in love with someone

Shiritaku Nakatta yo

I love you- my tears won't stop

I love you Namida tomaranai

And so I wish

Konnan ja Kimi no koto

That I had never met you

Shirazuni ireba Yokatta yo

How long will I be thinking of you?

Kimi wo itsumade omotteiru no kaNA?

My sighs fogged up the window glass

Tameiki ga mado GARASU(Glass) Kumoraseta

Can a candle flame

Yureru kokoro Tomosu KYANDORU(Candle) de

Still melt my trembling heart?

Ima Tokashite Yukenai kaNA?

Hold me tight, tight enough to break me

Hold me tight Oreru hodo tsuyoku

So that even in an icy wind or a blizzard

Kogarashi Fubuki ni deatte mo

I won't feel cold

Samukunai youni to

I miss you- every time I think of you

I miss you Kimi wo omou tabi

Tonight, too, I hold

Amikake no Kono MAFURAA(Muffler)

This half-finished muffler, all alone

Konya mo hitori Dakishimeru yo

If there was an eternally falling snow

Eien ni furu yukiga aru nara

Could it hide my feelings for you?

Kimi he to tsudzuku kono omoi Kakuseru no kaNA?

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
Hold me tight Konna omoi nara
I didn't want to know
Dareka wo suki ni naru kimochi
What it was like to be in love with someone
Shiritaku Nakatta yo
I love you- the feeling wells up in my chest
I love you Mune ni komiageru
I want to shout to the wintery sky
Fuyuzora ni sakebitai
"I want to see you right now"
Ima sugu kimi ni Aitai yo

Huggies

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New Moon...

2009-12-01T12:05:00.003+08:00

3 comments...

The book was good!!

The movie was ok!!

But Rob. Pattinson (r.b.) was so not ok.....

oh and 1 more...

Jacob Black or Taylor Lautner was nice~~~ ^^

I still don't see why girls can go GOO GOO GAGA about RB =.=..PUHHHLEEZZZ!! If you want to go goo goo gaga about some guy from the show... Jacob Black or again Taylor Lautner is soooo much way way better than RB!!

I go team Jacob...No way will I go for team Edward...ewwwwww...

Anywayz...I went to watch the movie yesterday with my 1st sister and mummy~ Went to GSC, Tropicana City cause well, hardly anyone goes there.. smart right..sure can get ticket...

The starting was quite boring... no action..juz lovey dovey between ugh..

Bella ( hey there is no ughs from me to her ) and Edward ( ugh to you )

Then blablabla he says he ( edward ) says he is not good for her ( bella ) and stuff and byebye and cry cry cry and ultra moody and blablabla

The YES! Jacob comes into the picture and whoa yeah..he got huge muscles..huge..

Bella acts stupid and tries to get herself in danger and stuff

Just when Jacob was getting closer to Bella...UGH comes back into the picture...

Well.. I guess most of you know what happened next anywayz... I rate the show...

6 or 7 out of 10.. hey thats NOT BAD OK!!

But... hoping that Percy Jackson and the Olympians - The lightning thief will get at least at 9 out of 10 for me... The book is really great..><>

2 more subjects to go for SPM!! And BUH BYE!! to boring subjects..sciences and etc... ^^~~

Can't wait to start working with Jean for 5 days right after chem. paper~~~ WHEEE~ RM250 for 5 days.. and only 3 hrs per day... not bad offer right! I need to money anyway... For dance and to go shopping and for savings and etc~ ^^ WHEEE~~

HUGGIES~~

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The rush!!!

2009-11-29T21:51:00.012+08:00

THE MOVIE IS COMING OUT!! OMG!!!!!

I CAN"T FREAKING WAIT FOR IT!!

By hook or crook...I will come back on that weekend to watch!!!

AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

FEB 11 It shall be released!! WAKAKAKA!!!

Logan Lerman - Percy Jackson ( main )

p.s...he is my age..

Alexandra Daddario - Annabeth Chase ( can consider main girl?? )

Brandon T. Jackson - Grover Underwood ( the Satyr and Percy's best friend )

Jake Abel - Luke ( the "friend" )

Who doesn't know him la..

Pierce Brosnan - Chiron ( the Centaur!! )

Kevin McKidd - Poseidon ( the Sea god~~ )

The actors and actresses are quite ok~ non ugly i guess??~

OMG! I can't wait!!

Read the books if you love greek mythology!!

Book 1 : The lightning thief

Book 2 : The sea of monsters

Book 3 : The titan's curse

Book 4 : The Labyrinth

Book 5 : The last olympian

Book reviews at www.percyjacksonbooks.com/

I can't wait!!

HUGGIESSSS!!

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Determined!

2009-11-28T20:35:00.001+08:00

Kuala Kubu Baru... thats where I am going for NS... well... was hoping for Sabah or Sarawak but too bad..=.=..got the first batch so not so bad la~~

huggies

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Bookies~ I love ya!

2009-11-26T12:55:00.008+08:00

My box~ well... at least it became this full in like half and hour I think..~~

Added another 10++ books after I took this picture~
My Heaven~~
The books in there are suited for both children and teens..
If you expect kids to read some of the books in there...they gotta be geniuses!!
wakakaka~

A small portion of the kids books!!
The room in too big for me to fit into a picture...

A few random novels I bought.. FOR NOW!
I recomend "the fire thief" by Terry Deary for those who love Greek stories and enjoyed the Horrible History series! Just started reading... it is a trilogy.. looking out for the other 2 book ( published already )

A series I bought!! Managed to get all hard cover!!
The blue book is the first.. a 3 in 1 book! followed by the brown..green and final, purple book!!
Can't wait to start reading it!!

I got a couple more series book but for now I will show you these...
Sorry that they are so blur.. used my phone to take photos!
But..
ngeh negh...
you haven't seen my new dragon egg added to my collection of dragons!
I just love dragon!
Dragons and dragonflies! wakakakaka!!
Got more books on dragons and pirates to try to complete my Oology series!
Got i think almost every book published under oology but spylogy.. not interested in spies...
LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING THEM!!!
while I look forward to my 2nd and 3rd trip to the sale...
*squeek!!!*

huggies forever~
:+:Su_mEi:+:

Big Bad Wolf Book Sale is BACKIE!! WOOOOHOOO!!

2009-11-25T22:47:00.007+08:00

WOOOOOOHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

The Big Bad Wolfie is Backie Wackie~~~

See diligent people sorting out over 200++++ pallets of BOOOKIESS!

OMG!! I can't wait to put my hands on those books!!

*droooooolll*

Books are OUT!!!

Book priview for *ahem* VIP ppl!! or special ppl ( like me~ )

was held today ( wednesday ) from 6 evening till 9~~

p.s. was there the whole 3 hrs~~

My mum ( very little ), Su Vian ( 1st sis ) and I... managed... to..spend...

* drum roll *

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RM 825.00!!!

we only had 3 hours so we couldn't look through all the books...

But!! If you feel shocked about how much I spent... well..

another mother and daughter couple ( amo-lang )..

spent... RM.... 1742.00!!!!!

Now that is ALOT!! Come on.. it wouold take me like what...2 days to buy that much book!

But enough talking!

EVERYBODY OUT THERE!! Go and visit this sale! Books you buy outside at RM 50 can only be RM 8 at the sale.. you will regret if you don't go!

Don't tell me I did not warn you~

Will be posting tomorrow some of the books I got~

Look forward to it~

HUGGIES!!!

:+:Su_mEI:+:

Fully Booked!

2009-11-12T12:01:00.002+08:00

Sigh..Paradise Sandy Beach Resort FULLY BOOKED!! Searching for another place now...T.T...

My anime craze~~~

2009-11-11T14:11:00.007+08:00

D. GRAY-MAN!!!!

Without any thought... My fav character is...

* SQUEEKKKK* I LOVE KANDA YU!!

MY FAV CHARACTER!!

HUGGIIEEESSS~~~

ONE PIECE!!!

can't decide which will be my fav. guy character....

Ussop...Franky...Luffy...Brook is OUT!!!!

Left Sanji~ and Zoro~ ^^ which one which one~~

Chopper is not counted...

Sanji~ or Zoro~

cannot decide XD

huggies~~~

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Destination Decided!

2009-11-11T00:33:00.005+08:00

Penang.... HERE WE COME!!

From the 21st till 23rd of December...

My family and I will be enjoying scrumptious penang sea food~

WHEEE~~~

My dad asked me to search for a hotel today...

and of course...

I was looking all the 5 star hotels in Penang...ngeh ngeh ^^

I suggested places like Shangri-la's Rasa Sayang Beach Resort which is at Batu Feringgi ^^

But...Papa says...NOOO!! Too far out! Lazy drive... + expensive....

He is more lazy to drive than to take out money from his wallet...

Well... less energy qua...

So I searched all the 5 star hotels and most of them were at Batu Feringgi or further so

I GAVE UP!!

I searched for the next best which would be 4 stars and I got...

TADA!!

PARADISE SANDY BEACH RESORT!!

It looks quite sucky but insides are quite nice... ^^

Couldn't get nice pictures of the beach so I got the pool~

Not bad la for a 4 star hotel...

Looking forward to SEA...SUN...SWEAT!! hehe ^^
could get a nice tan too..^^ BEACH!!! SEA FOOD!!
CAN"T WAIT TILL THIS BLASTED SPM IS OVER!!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

huggies~

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Updates?

2009-11-10T11:20:00.004+08:00

Wah.... I haven't touched my bloggie since like Halloween...@_@

Anywayz, been studying for SPM in SCHOOL~

Been watching anime and reading manga at HOME~

Very balanced, right? cause....

All work and no play spoils the... broth?

I dunno... I think I got that quote from an archie comic book...

Oh well ^^~~~

I think the subjects I am most worried about is Sejarah and Additional Maths!

UGH!! Won't fail em... but... to get a credit and above...

emmm... hehe??

This Saturday I will be leaving for Muar, Johor!

2nd Muar International Dance Competition!!

I know I should be studying but it is going to be my last competition till after NS...

If I get first batch that is...@_@

People out there...

Please pray for me ><

I seriously lack practice and I need your prayer ^^

Much appreciated ^^

phew... ok...since I skipped school today..

I gotta study at home... @_@

See ya later ~~

:+:Su_mEi:+:

boooooo~~

2009-10-31T23:04:00.007+08:00

:+: HaPpY HaLLoWeeN :+:

Holidays = show time!!

2009-10-21T20:46:00.006+08:00

More holidays just finished! According to Ms. Wendy it seems that my class took a super lot of holidays this year~ Due to H1N1 stuff ^^

I managed to watch 2 seasons of Gundam 00 in 2 days!! I don't really fancy mecha but gundam is nice ^^~~ The idea of creating a world with the people united as 1... How we wish we could go to that direction... Removing the process of getting there which is fighting against war with force... meaning forcing the people to stop fighting by going against the 2 warring sides~ Lotsa people died =D and I don't think we would want that~

But Gundam takes place in I think the year 2307... man already built railway stations to outer space~ SO FREAKING COOL!! Imagine riding a train to outer space..aaaaaaaa.... sad we're gonna miss such a nice thing cuz well.. tell me who is gonna be alive in 2307 la~ haih... but cars were not flying at that time... but schools were all laptop base and lots more!! Hearts technology~

I plan to watch finish gossip girls season 1, 2 & 3, Heroes season 3 & 4, Code Geass 1 and 2, zero no tsukaima 1,2 & 3, True Tears, and etc~~ AAA!! Waiting for my pet bro to give me One Piece too~~ WHEEE~~~~~~

Spiritual~

2009-10-18T22:51:00.009+08:00

Went to church...

Learnt something new~~~

Spiritual

The Chinese word spiritual comes from the word lamb and me~ Why??

lamb

Jesus that sacrificed himself on the cross is the lamb~

Meaning us... This means without God, the lamb, we will achieve spirituality ^^ Chinese people actually came up with such a thing ^^ didn't know ^^ well...what to do, I am after all a

B-A-N-A-N-A...haih

Anywayz, I'll be going to church more often now ^^ sad that I'll be late for youth every time but better late than never~

Didn't know that I haven't gone to church for so long... everyone is like "loooong time no see le" to me...=.=" and I guess I really missed everyone...

SOOOO HAPPY TO SEE EVERYONE!! sobs sobs T.T

Choices~

2009-10-12T21:36:00.004+08:00

^-^

I guess I have more or less decided la~~

I will most likely study Foundation in Arts at HELP Uni~

Followed by Mass Comm to do Event Management~

My criteria for my career ( in order of importance ) is like:-

Family - 30%

Pay - 27%

Changing Enironment - 20%

Ability to Travel - 9%

Working hours - 8%

Stress - 6%

The PROs of Event management would be :-

~> It is a new and growing course

~> There is an average amount of job available

~> The environment will always change depending on the event

~> A lot of travelling

~> Quite a good pay

~> etc

The CONs of Event management would be :-

~> Lack of time spent with family and friends

~> Large amountevents of stress during major

~> Not of 9-5 job

~> etc

To me family is really important so it kinda makes me wanna rethink about taking this course... Cause I wanna be with my family now and when I have my own family I would lagi wanna be with them... But I think that a lot of jobs out there are also lidat... And those people still manage to spend time with their family so I think that if I put enough effort to spend time with my family I would be able to be with them while taking up this career ^^

Plus, if I travel a lot I wouldn't be able to compete in dance cause I would always be not around and I can't have a partner... But on the other hand, to do well in dance we also need to gain knowledge from other places so I guess travelling will help with dance in a way ^^~~

Money is a big problem in life... I mean there is so many things I want to do like learn the flute and violin, do dancing as my career and lots more but $$$$$ needed... so instead of being down, I wanna earn as much money as I can so that when my children want to learn something I can support them all the way~~

Imagine working behind the desk everyday counting money, or typing on the computer, or talking to lab apparatus everyday.... I will DIE! So meaning I need a job with an ever changing environment... Every event is different so meaning again that event management will give way for changing of environments often enough~~

Event's working hours are not constant... can be short hours can be long...depends if there is an event going on loo~~ I don't mind staying up so yeap~~

Stress~ I think I can work under stress quite ok~ Well...... again it depends on what stress but what job has no stress...

Ahhh!! I think i will stick to this choice~~ Unless I suddenly change my mind la~ ^^ hehe

Bliss~

2009-10-05T22:18:00.006+08:00

YAHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

The good news is, EXAM IS OVER!! WAHOOOOO!!

The bad news is, it is only over till SPM starts...@_@ groan~

NEVER MIND! I shall enjoy my freedom while I still can.

At the moment, I'm still downloading my 25 episodes of Skip Beat! It has a superb manga so I really hope that the anime will also be as good... I saw on wikipedia that there is also a drama for it... Looking for it now~~~

The mangas I am now reading are..lets see...

-Skip Beat

- Witch Hunter

- Vampire Knight

-La Corda d'Oro

- Gakuen Alice

- 07 Ghost

- One Piece ( gonna restart )

-ETC...

Thanks Choon Wei for lending me the bookies~

- The whole set of ARTEMIS FOWL!

Seriously, for a sci fic book it is really nice... I mean, I totally hate sci fic cause it is so boring and blablabla but this book has a mixture of sci fic and fantasy which makes is SOOOO NICE!! I am gonna drown myself in all the mangas and bookies~!!!

Oh not to mention! CRYSTAL! Please remember to bring your hard drive to dance practice on fri or class on sat! Wanna watch Gossip Girls ( since everyone says it is nice ) and Heroes Season 3 and 4!! WHEEE~~~~

AH~ Bliss till SPM! Well, till 3 weeks before SPM?? Anywayz, will be participating in the 2nd Muar Rising Star Competition on the 15th Nov 09'... 3 days before SPM! hehe~ I bet ppl like Crystal, Jasmine, Shien Ni, and loads more are thinking that I'm crazy ^^~~~

Oh CRAP! Look at the time! Gotta go into the room now if I wanna start reading Artemis Fowl the 2nd book!! Okie! See ya. Will update tomorrow again I think.. ^^~~

Au Revoir~

xoxo

:+:Su_mEi :+:

Smiles!!!

2009-09-17T21:09:00.004+08:00

Oh Bloggie!! I MISS YOU!!! Haven't written for sooo sooo SOOO LONG!! Lotsa things have been happening so I have been pretty busy...

Trials are Finally OVER!!!

Its the start of the Raya Holidays! One of the things I Love bout M'sia is HOLIDAYS! Uhuh ^^ M'sia is like the country with the most holidays!! Don't know if it is a good thing or not but oh well ^^ Who complains bout holidays... except workaholics =.="...

Tomorrow I will be most likely going out with Mummy and Su Vian ( 1st sis ) to jalan-jalan at the mall ^-^ Can't wait... been like forever since I last went out 'jalaning' ^^ ~~~ It is kinda funny how I use to HATE shopping with my mum and sis cause they would stay in 1 shop forever!! The only shop I use to be ok with was the shoe shop ( though i still hated it.. ><* ) cause there were chairs! Oh the glorious chairs for me to sit on ^^ But now, I kinda like going shopping ^^ 1/2...erm... fine 3/4 because I get to buy things ^^ Nice clothes and nice shoes~~~ hehe~~

According to mummy, we will be going at bout 10 in the morning ^^ Then later I will be going out with che ( su vian ) and Mark ( her bf ) to some wizard's cafe or something to play boardgames for approximately 5-6 hours wor ^^ happy but I feel bad about leaving mummy alone at home... Papa will be working and I will be back only like after dinner so mummy will be home alone till papa comes back from work... Home alone can be nice but in the end it kinda sucks... Lonely... But it is even worse to bring her to the cafe cause well... U know... ^^

Lately, been feeling a widdle liddle bit down... my heart just kinda feels heavy and it is harder to smile... But HECK! Thats so not me so * slap face *.. Gotta keep smiling ^^ Gotta release more endorphines or was it adrenaline or wtv la ( hate bio!! ) I am sure by smiling I am gonna make my day a little better ^^ At least I hope so...........

AH!! WTV!! gonna enjoy my holiday to the max!!!!!

WOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!

:+:Su_mEi:+:

p.s. SORRY YEE LING! Wish i could go out with you tomorrow...hows next week?? =D

shen jian... this post has no colour man... can you read better now???

Dance report ( before competition )

2009-08-24T19:30:00.007+08:00

Topic : 9th Crystal Dancesport Championship

Aim : To get top places in all events!!!!!!!!!!

Problem Statement : What placing will we achieve in all events???

Hypothesis : The more we ( partner & I ) practice, the higher the chances of getting top places in all events.

Variables : Manipulated : Hours of practice

Responding : Results in the competition

Constant : Presence of Partner & I

Apparatus & Materials : Clock, Confidence, Good posture, Body tone, Hand movement, Performance, Presentation, Costume, Make-up and accessories, Partner, Myself, Results sheet, Music, Studio, PA System... ( can't think of more )

Procedure:
1. Couple decides what time to meet up at the studio.
2. Couples than sets up the needed apparatus and materials for a practice session.
3. Couples use confidence, good posture, body tone in the dances.
4. Adding hand movement, performance and presentation.
5.Practice goes for more than an hour.
6. Steps 1-5 are repeated for a few days.
7. Couples meets on competition day.
8. Same apparatus and materials are used as stated previously, adding costume, make-up and accessories.
9. The results are than observed and recorded.

Results :
B. Waltz - ???
B. Quickstep - ???
B. Cha Cha Cha - ???
B. Samba - ???
B. Rumba - ???
B. Jive - ???

Conclusion : ........ ( we shall see.... )

~-~-~-~ End of report ~-~-~-~

My Bottle...

2009-08-07T22:52:00.004+08:00

A bottle,
An object that lies deep within my soul;
A bottle,
My one and only hiding place.

A hiding place from Pain,
A hiding place from Sadness;
A hiding place from Grief,
A hiding place from the world.

A place to store my thoughts,
A place to store my feelings;
A place for me to cry,
A place for me to suffer in silence.

Day by day,
My bottle is filled;
With experiences one can't explain,
With the pain I want to keep away.

Smiles on the surface,
But wounds from within;
I live my life,
By keeping in.

But once in a while,
My bottle becomes full;
I start to choke,
I start to suffocate.

Sitting in silence,
I will close my eyes;
To whisper a prayer,
To empty my bottle.

A prayer filled with tears,
A prayer filled with hope;
A prayer to plead,
A prayer to ask.

My bottle becomes an empty vessel,
Waiting to be filled again;
I keep on repeating this scenario,
So that I can continue smiling on the surface.

So that my smiles will never fade,
And I will keep on walking in the light.

:+: Su_mEi :+:

From within~

2009-07-19T12:40:00.005+08:00

Simple steps I do to get INTO the music~

1. Turn neutral. Throw every worry, every fear away. Imagine you're in a place and there is only you and your partner.
2. Create a connection between the 2 of you using your eyes. Something like being in sync. The lady gives all her focus to the gentleman.
3. Relax and let the music beat from within you. Feel the music, the beat~~
4. Don't restrict your body. If you feel scared or worried about how you look and stuff, go back to step one again. ^^
5. Allow your body to move freely with the music.

p.s. The dance steps have to be programmed into your body already. Meaning without thinking your body will just remember how to move correctly. This helps when either one of the partners forget their steps and the other can rechoreograph and move their body to follow. Synchronization helps.

First day at....Surabaya!!

2009-07-14T10:07:00.022+08:00

Hi! Just came back from Surabaya, Indonesia like on Monday at about 1 something in the morning...YAWN... ^^ Went there for a dance competition ( as per usual ).. Had lotsa fun!! Here are some of the first day pictures ^^

Vini Vidi Vici Hotel^^

TRYING to look cool.. ^^~~

Edmund and I! I just LOVE Belman's PRADA shades!! ( p.s they are original )
Where to??
Middle oh the hotel! Cool right~~
Alex... watcha trying to do...
Maybelle..Alex and Muar ^^
Sexay See Wai!! and me ^^
Belman trying to be a spy?? ^^
Edmund and I! SQUEEEK!! I love the shades!!!
Alex and I ^^
Stanley and I ^^

CAUTION!! Pink hot chick!!!

Nice or naughty Gabby and i ^^~~~

Coco is so HOT!
Nice shot!!! Kenneth is seriously jumping!

PHEW!! too many to upload le~~~ You guys, if you want the photos please ask em from either me or Edmund cause seriously...way tooo many to upload slowly~~ will go craaazzzyy @_@

But these are some of em for the first day~~ Will upload more~~ HUGGIES!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Perfect??

2009-07-04T20:19:00.003+08:00

Hey Hey!! Haven't updated my bloggie in a while.. been BUSY!! lets see if I am poetic today~~

Listening to the beat of the music,
All my worries just disappear instantly;
I don't feel sad, angry or sick,
I just feel happy and full of glee.

Troubled times are coming around,
And problems are always chasing me;
But when I am surrounded by sound ( music ),
I remember that I am only ME.

An average girl who was never perfect,
An average girl who is not perfect;
An average girl who will never be perfect,
An average girl who dreams to be perfect.

to be continued~~

HUGGIES!!

:+:SU_mEi:+:

The road to walk

2009-06-19T23:45:00.005+08:00

Watching the spinning needle of the ticking clock,
Thoughts of regret start to sprout and mock;
Mocking us about our mistakes and faults,
That we wish we could forget & seal up in a vault.

Like a chicken wishing to fly freely,
We start to dream up things that are silly;
Dreaming of flying and standing up tall,
Only to lie flat when the sky crumbles and falls.

What can we get from the PAST?
What can we achieve from the FUTURE?
Why live on such figures that are unknown?
Why do we chase them so earnestly?

The past is long gone...
The future has yet to come...
The present is now...
So we should all take action.

Nothing can change the past,
With no action the future will pass,
The present is where we should stand,
With the now we can stand on stable land.

On land ( present) we may fall,
But we will not drown.
On sea ( the unknown, future, past ) we will fall,
And we WILL drown.

Keep on the Present path,
While in our heart we shall keep the past;
In our mind we will hold the future,
But by our hands we shall grasp the future.

Summary : Regret ( past )...Hope and Dreams ( future )... are nothing compared to ACTION ( present )...

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Teacher's Day Poem...=.="

2009-05-31T20:01:00.004+08:00

Every morning, everyday...
We stand up in class only to say...
"Class stand ( by monitor ).. GOOD MORNING TEACHER ( by the whole class in a dull tone)..."
With eyes full of sleepy tears...

Many at times we have angered you,
With our ignorance, foolishness and stupidity too;
But know this well, my teacher, remember,
That you can never judge a book by its cover.

We know, you have planted us seeds with care,
Soiled us with abundance of knowledge;
Watered us with showers of love,
Shone light onto the path we must walk.

We know, what we reap today,
Is what you have sowed in us;
You have nurtured us to become fruitful trees,
That will bloom with colours ever so bright.

Behind our ignorance, foolishness and stupidity,
Know that we realise and appreciate your sacrifices;
Whether we show it or not,
Know that we will always remember you.

Your teachings, your lessons,
Your love for us students.

Thank you, teacher.
Thank you from the deepest of our hearts,
Thank you, my beloved teacher.

:+: Su_mEi :+:

I love earthquakes ^^

2009-05-17T10:33:00.010+08:00

EARTHQUAKE DAY!!!
- Sis came back from Singapore ( studying there )!!

- The girls in the family decided to celebrate her belated belated birthday by going to SWENSEN'S!! WHEEE!!!

Su Ming and Su Vian! ^^

Mummy and I ^^

Su Ming's spaghetti!

My Sandwiches!!

Mummy's Pizza ^^

Su Vian's baked chicken with rice and loads of cheese!!

OUR EARTHQUAKES!! Are they not nice? Earthquakes ROCKS!!

My Father...^^

2009-05-12T13:56:00.003+08:00

This is a poem I wrote in like 3 minutes as an ending for my essay in my English Paper 1. I was suppose to start a story with " He smiled at me..." and I chose to talk bout my father ^^

.....

Patience is virtue,
And in this man, it is true,
My father, My friend,
Forever till worlds end.

His love never failing,
His mouth ever smiling,
Oh, how I love him so,
His character and his soul,

Thank you for being in my life,
With you, time flies,
A few more years is all that's left,
Let us make them the very best.

:+:Su_mEi:+:

!st day of Exam...

2009-05-11T19:20:00.004+08:00

2 PAPERS DOWN! 19 TO GO!!!

Today was BM 1 and BM2... Conveniently, last Friday during BM tuition, I handed up my workbook which had all the Komsas notes behind it. Yup, I did not have any book to study from today. I found out last night. =.="... So I went off to school... put my bags down and went to Rachel's place to borrow her Komsas notes... PHEW... read bout one of each type and ah how lucky I was... The ones I read all came out EXCEPT for 1... But it doesn't really matter to I just guessed all the answers to that section...

Paper 1 was easier... It is just karangan after all. Wrote the first one with 300 words and the other with bout 400+ words... No point writing too much after all... The weather was like SUPA HOT!! But thank God there was a bit of wind ( sitting next to the window )!!!

I finished my paper 1 too early so guessed what, I started counting the different coloured cars and different vehicles that passed by the road just opposite my school. Here are my statistics...
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Cars
Silver - 30%
Gray - 15%
Blue - 13.75%
Black - 10%
White - 8.75%
Maroon - 5%
Gold - 3.75%
Green - 3.75%
Orange - 2.25%
yellow - 1.25%
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Total---100%
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Different Type of Vehicles
Cars - 72.8%
Motorcycles - 11.8 %
Taxi - 7.2%
Lorry - 6.4%
Bicycle - 1.8%
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Total --100%

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Now you know how bored I was. Oh, this statistics is based on a time limit of 10 minutes ^^ I got headache trying to count the buzzing cars...

The rest of the day was dance...dance and more dance!! ^^ But now I have to go and study Sejarah for Wednesday's test... Tomorrow is English so nothing much... SIGH!! GAMBATEH!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Big Bad Wolf Books Sale!

2009-05-11T18:50:00.008+08:00

Below is an e-mail sent to me by the owner of BookExcess bookstore which is located at Amcorp Mall.

____________________________________________________________________
From: sales@bookxcess.com
To: ;
Subject: Big Bad Wolf Books! The newest and 'baddest' book retailer in town
Date: Sun, 10 May 2009 16:02:54 +0800

Dear Members,

There’s a new player in the book industry and the name is Big Bad Wolf Books!

Big Bad Wolf Books will bring you the latest in every genre in the book industry at the lowest prices possible.

From 14 (Thu) to 18 (Mon) May 2009, Big Bad Wolf Books will be holding its inaugural book sale, The Big Bad Book Sale and it's gonna be something you don’t want to miss! All books will be between RM5 and RM20 only! Check out http://www.bigbadwolfbooks.com to see a selection of books available at The Big Bad Book Sale and their unbelievably low prices!

Big Bad Wolf Books is brought to you by the people behind BookXcess as we truly believe in helping people read more for less. So come along to the sale and tell your friends about it too.

We have set up a Facebook page http://www.facebook.com/pages/Kuala-Lumpur-Malaysia/Big-Bad-Wolf-Books/74209335097 and event http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=86424504456 to give you and your friends all the information they need about this amazing event. Or you can simply forward this e-mail to any friends who might be interested.

Here’s to making BBW Big Bad Wolf Books a truly big, 'bad' player in the books industry and enabling them to not only bite chunks off the prices of books but also to bring you the latest bestsellers!

Come along with your family and friends to The Big Bad Book Sale this weekend. A free, limited edition bookmark will be yours with any purchase at the sale, while stock lasts!

See you at The Big Bad Book Sale!

Warmest regards,
Andrew & Jacqueline Yap.

____________________________________________________________________

:+:Su_mEi:+:

SIGH

2009-05-10T22:11:00.004+08:00

YUP!! Exam is here...=.=
Lets all shout a cheer...WHHEeeeee..=.=

And this is what I have been doing,
When I am suppose to be studying?

Oh, time, Please pass faster,
It would all be for the better.

Cause all I can think of is...
DANCE DANCE DANCE!!

Heart Dancing forever!

:+:Su_mEi:+:

Cute Animal Wallpapers!!

2009-05-10T13:09:00.006+08:00

I heart YOU!!!!

PANDAS!!!

Rabbits discovering snails for the first time?

Tiger cubs!!!

Ahem... GLOBAL WARMING!! Look at the poor polar bears...

Polar bears...opps.. Looks like one went to the dry cleaners...

Click to zzzooOOOOMMMMM!!! *squeak!!* THEIR SO CUTEEE!!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Coming Events!!!

2009-05-10T12:07:00.003+08:00

May 10Th - Mummy's DAY!!!
11Th - Mid-term exam starts...GROAN...
23rd - World Dance Academy Annual Dinner and Dance!!!
28Th - LAST DAY OF MID-TERM EXAM!!!
29Th - Teacher's day celebration at BU2
30Th - Start of HOLIDAY!

June 14Th - Melaka International Competition!
16Th - Jeannette's BIRTHDAY!! ( wouldn't miss it <3)
21st - Daddy's day!!!!

July 4Th - Kenneth's birthday! ( am i right? =P )
11Th - Surabaya International!!
18Th - Jie Lin's Birthday!
20Th - Choon Sam's and Maybelle's Birthday!!!

Aug 31st - National Day and...
7Th CRYSTAL INTERNATIONAL DANCE SPORT!!

This is for now i guess.... I haven't inserted some of the others in which I am sorry I may have forgotten or I still don't know about it... HM.. EITHER WAY.. hehe ^^ ahax ^^

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Penang competition!!

2009-05-03T20:36:00.013+08:00

HEYA EVERYBODY!! I'M BACKIE WACKIE! ^^ ahax ^^ just came back from Penang a couple of hours ago.. had dinner and a nice bath and I am now currently sitting on my computer chair infront of the computer typing whatever you're reading now ^^ I have like lotsa photos from the 2nd night of our trip ( candid shots ) thinking i would blog them but I guess I won't unless I have permission to ^^ cause 1/2 the photos are from the Girls Appartment... So..TOO BAD GUYS!!! The rest may have funny captions so yeah... ^^ below are just some of the photos.. some you many not understand yet so wait till I do story telling owkie ^^ which will be probably in my next post of something...

Gurney Drive, Penang... Not a nice place at all...
Crowded, Horrible food...

Fire Show!!! The guy manage to keep like a big
flame on his tongue for like a long time!

Looks nice? Looks normal?
Here you go, 1 roti telur with CHEESE!
*was horrible*

Alex complaining about how horrible
his food is...

Tell me, how can 20 eat RM187+ worth of food at
a MAMAK shop! No way! Guys checking out the bill...

Edmund : Heck NO! No.13 is so HOT!
Alex : NO WAY! No.26 is so much prettier than No.13!

Edmund : Oh the horror when I got chased by that huge dog!
I had to run round and round a car just to loose it!!
( he is telling us his history about a dog and him )

Bernard trying do belly dancing which sitting down?

Girls shoes... Messy right...

Girls are messy... But we always tidy up in the end... ^^

These are some of the normal photos.. Afraid Maybelle won't let me put up her photos so I did not ^^ will ask her soon if I can ^^Till then... "BUAI BUAI"!!

heart dancing FOREVA!!
DANCING ROCKS!!!
MUAAAXXXX!!
xoxo...

Dancing lover,
:+: Su_mEi :+:

Dance competition!!

2009-04-29T16:02:00.002+08:00

This Saturday...
DANCE COMPETITION in Penang!!!
I will do my BEST!!
GOOOO!!!

Heart dancing foreva and eva!! MUAXXX!!

:+;Su_mEi :+:

First day of MSSD Basketball Competition!!!

2009-04-06T19:39:00.004+08:00

Date : 06 April 2009
Venue : SMK BU(3)
Time : * did not follow schedule... was delayed *

Under-18 Girls team

Opponent - SMK Sultan Abdul Samad

Members from SMK BUD (2)
1. Jeannette Kuek - Jersey no. 6
2. Thean Su Mei (me) - Jersey no. 7
3. Rachel Loo - Jersey no.8
4. Liew Shien Ni - jersey no. 9
5. Jasmine Yeo - Jersey no. 10
6. Tiong Suet Wah - Jersey no.12
7. Yeoh Yuh Li - Jersey no.13

Final Score : (BUD2) 12 - 16 ( SAS ) * NOT THAT FAR APART!!*

Play of events
Firstly... We had 7 players while the other school had 10 players and 2 reserves.. WE DID GOOD!! Next our opponent team...They had 2 tall girls... 2 big sized girls and the rest were normal ^^ but their sizes were definitely human ^^ The first period I sat out to watch over the 4th and 5th player so that I could take over anytime... SUPA scary!! In the first period... Jeannette few and slid from one court to another side of the court.. SCARY SUMO GIRLS!!

The game kept going on and on and on... Rachel got slapped on the face like super a lot of time till it was red for more than an hour+++... I got karate chops all over... The rest I am not very sure but everyone definitely got a lil bit hurt in a way ^^ We lost but we did our best! Tomorrow's opponent is SMK DU! We just gotta do our very best till the end !!! D.U. HERE WE COME!!!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Latest events~~

2009-04-05T21:57:00.003+08:00

SpOrTs d@y!!!

- Got up freaking early!!
- Reached school at 6.30!! @_@
- Helped the cheer. girls tie a high ponytail...
- Practiced cheer steps...
- Help with make up... ( did the eye liner )
- Practice again =.=
- Went out to watch marching
- Practiced cheer AGAIN!
- Green house cheer ( one person injured arm till cannot move apparently )
- My house cheer ( PURPLE!! )
- Red house cheer ( was getting ready for run )
- Yellow house cheer
- Last year's champ.. Blue house cheer!
- lotsa stuff going on...
- ....
- .....
- .......
- WON CHEER COMPETITION!! FIRST PLACE!! WHEEE!!!
- Purple got 2nd placing overall..=.=".. lost by 4 points to yellow! AAARRRGHH!!

That was like the schedule for sports day which was on the 3rd of April.. A Friday..=.=... Apparently from what I heard from my girl friend, a lot of people did not recognize me with my hair all tied up high and with make up... hmm... is it cause I looked SUPA U.G.L.Y or what.. ^^ but guess I looked different ^^ I think they will faint when they see me with dance make up which is way way way darker and thicker than what I did on sports day.. @_@

Saturday and Sunday...

As per usual...
DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCE!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Ending song with a meaning

2009-03-29T21:00:00.004+08:00

Ending song from the anime Angelic Layer.. I like the meaning of the song ^^

Tonight there is another transparent starry sky,
Konya no mata, hakanai hoshi sora,
Will my wish be granted by the glowing star.
Hikaru hoshini, negai wo kakeru kana.

Worries are never something to feel down about,
Nayami wa itsumo, dareru koto mo nai,
But the door is already open.
Karedo tobira wa, mou hiraite iru yo.

Even when I got stepped on or knocked down,
Humarete mo, taorete mo,
You gave me the strength to get back up.
Okiageru tsuyosa kureta kimi ga.

I sing in order to become the rising star,
Okoraru hoshi ni naru tame, boku wa utau kara a
More than this, I'll try harder,
Imaijya ni, ganbaru kara,
To become even stronger.
Motta tsuyoku nareru youni.

Steady love, a love that can withstand anything,
Yurugi nai ai, donna taichi na ai,
I think you are far more prcious than anyone else.
Dare yori mo zutto, daiji ni omotte ru.

There are some bad nights,
Hukan na yoru wa, tashikani arukeredo,
I won't lose and I'll live on!
Makenaide, ikite yuku boku nara!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

A poem of apology...

2009-03-26T20:09:00.003+08:00

Here's a poem of apology i wrote quite a while ago... Some stuff happen between my class and a teacher so i was asked to make an apology card... I added onto the card a poem... here it is.. It is not 100% original ( surprised cause i usually can write 100% original ones but this one is not )...

How do we tell you we're sorry,
With a gesture, a look, a touch?
How is it we never realized
We've hurt you so very much?

7 days and forever passed,
To bring us to this day,
When we present these simple words,
We always have thought to say.

We're sorry we hurt you,
We didn't mean to;
We're sorry we hurt you,
We regret it, we do.

So here is our humble apology,
We present to you today,
We hope we did it properly,
That's all we have to say.

We're sorry.

I had to use we in the poem cause it is from a class of 24 people so yeah! XD!! We were forgiven in the end anyway! XD Poetry is so nice!! Have to get back to making more poems... been a while since I wrote any... hmmm... well, if i get any new ideas i will post em up... but remember... ALL MY POEMS AS 100% ORIGINAL!! well... except this one... but the rest will be! See ya!

huggies~~
:+: Su _mEi :+:

Monday's Blues!!

2009-03-23T19:35:00.004+08:00

Darn, the first feeling I feel is not THE BLUES... It is the ever annoying stomach cramp!!! Being a girl can be annoying once in a while =.= ( guys, start thanking God you're not girls )... It was only when my mum insisted I still had to go to school that made THE BLUES come... I DISLIKE ( hate is not a nice word to you ) MONDAYS!!

So I did the usual stuff anyway. Wash up, change, eat, get ready and GO! I was awake the whole way to school but after climbing up to the 3rd floor with the pain my stomach makes and leg muscles that only aches, I knocked out right after I put my butt on my chair. zzzzZZZZZzzzzZZZZZ!! ^^" * BRIIIIIINNNGGG!!! * The annoying sound woke me up and that was the start of the " wonderful " week!!

Assembly was of course boring as per usual ^^ Then 1st period, Bahasa Melayu ( or Bahasa Malaysia.. i dunno which is it now!!! ) It was karangan time ( essays ) and as per usual i did not bother listening to a word my teacher spoke... I was busy coming up with "words" to remind me about dancing ^^ here are the two new ones i made ^^

W.O.E.S

Weight on each Step!!

G.L.O.B.A.L

Great Lovers of Ballroom and Latin!!!
( We are global aren't we XD )

If you did not read my earlier post then you would not know the first ever one I made as a reminder for my dance... It was when i was very frustrated with my dancing, at how I was not improving much... So i came up with S.T.U.M.P! * go to my previous post to read about it ( 19th of March ) *

The rest of the school day passed really slowly. I sped home only to eat, bathe and sleep. After a nice dinner, here I am trying to be a good girl by updating my bloggie ^^

My buddy Wilson came up with a few more funny ones ^^

T.A.S.T.E.S
Tighten Abs, Stretch the Elbows Straight
(ballroom frame for men)

S.T.F.U
Stretch Thru Feet Upwards.
( HA! I bet you thought i was cursing right!! XP )

I will be making more of these so WAIT FOR EM!! ^^ So till then, I bid farewell to thee!! ^^

:+: Su_mEi :+:

6 out of 10 dances COMPLETE!! WHEEE!!

2009-03-20T19:30:00.003+08:00

Before the holiday, our goal was to finish 10 dances by the end of holiday. They are :
1. Beginners Samba
2. Beginners Cha Cha Cha
3. Beginners Rumba
4. Beginners Paso Doble
5. Beginners Jive
6. Advance Samba
7. Advance Cha Cha Cha
8. Advance Rumba
9. Advance Paso Doble
10. Advance Jive

The Advance steps can be used to compete in novice, pre-amateur, junior under-16, and rising star categories... if i am correct but i am sure of it being used in novice, pre-amateur and junior under-16!! ^^

At the end of the holiday, ( well almost end ) we finished choreographing 6 dances.
1. Beginners Samba
2. Beginners Rumba
3. Advance Samba
4. Advance Cha Cha Cha
5. Advance Rumba
6. Advance Jive

It is not bad you know... it is a tough job remembering SOOOO many different steps ^^ but I guess after lots of practice, the steps will just sink into our bodies and we will naturally remember them ^^ Now i know all the steps for the dances we learn, I gotta put technique in and work to perfect the dance!! I CAN DO IT!! GOOOOO!!!!!!!!

I have about 5 weeks and 6 days which rounds up to 6 weeks to master Advance Cha Cha Cha and Advance Jive for the Latin-American Novice Category!! Not a long time but i think i can do it! As Belman says, I already know what i have to do to improve my dancing, I just have to do it!! Like what Nike says, JUST DO IT!!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!

YES, I CAN PRACTICE AND DO WELL!!!
YES, I WILL PRACTICE AND DO WELL!!!
YES, I MUST PRACTICE AND DO WELL!!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

S.T.U.M.P!!

2009-03-19T21:12:00.003+08:00

S.T.U.M.P!!!

Well, this is the best i could come up with ( was half dead eating lunch )

S - Stand
T - Tighten
U - Up
M - Muscles
P - Power

When you take alternate letters you get...
Stand Up... Tighten Muscles...& Power!!

Standing up or toning my body is like my ultra supa dupa major problem in dance... why? cause i am wormy!! Wonder if eating too many gummy worms made me like this... hmmm... anyway, i seriously wanna get this problem over and done with!!! HELP!! sigh... but even if i shout help, the only person that can really help me is MYSELF!! I also love to look at the floor, the floor is so beautiful right.. ^^ I need need NEEEEDD to keep my head up!! I was thinking of using the old method done in ballet... place a bell on the head and dance without dropping it!!! ONLY PROBLEM... i can't find a bell..* depressed *....

Tighten Muslces is something that contributes to tone... well, can't really help much i guess... i just have to constantly remember to tighten my muscles while dancing!! I CAN DO IT!!!

Power!! When i stand up and tighten my muscles i will become toned and i will have power in my dance aka strength!! So yeah!! I need to fix all of these problems real soon!! Can't let them stay any longer!!! HAVE TO PRACTICE!!!

I HAVE TO PRACTICE DANCE!!!
PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE!!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

1/2 way through the holiday!!!

2009-03-18T19:34:00.003+08:00

Today is well, the middle day of the whole holiday!! Nuts... time passes so fast!!! But... the faster it passes the faster I get to get out of school uniform!! WHEEEE!!! Today was like super tiring, but i guess i am not at my limit yet...^^ still got energy!!

Got up at 7.00 only to rush to school by 7.30 for BASKETBALL TRAINING!! "WONDERFUL!!" It was raining cats and dogs first... then it changed to " kittens and puppies ". While it rained, we used to school foyer to do our warm ups and just to polish a few things.

List of warm up activities
1. Run ( I actually don't remember how many rounds cause I just follow people )
2. Normal warm up ( Act stuck up, act depressed, slap your left cheek, then your right...etc )
3. Frog jump while bouncing the ball ( I nearly died... scary frog jump... i wonder how much muscles frogs have just to jump so high... )
4. Dribbling around human cones ( we couldn't get the store room key... so we acted like cones while our friends bounced the ball pass us )
5. Well, this was only for me... A run to the toilet to vomit and back again to the foyer...

Puan Yap ( basketball teacher ) finally came!!! We complained about what happen on monday ( we came to school, got chased out by guard saying we did not inform him when we did, went round the whole place searching for a court and ended up at Damansara Kim... )... She then showed us a few colours we can choose for our jersey!! The colours we already matched up so we could only choose which combination we wanted... White was disliked by everyone ( naturally... it gets dirty too fast!! )... so we ended up with... ORANGE AND BLACK!!! How nice right... ^^

Oh and for jersey numba... i chose... * drum roll * NUMBA 7!!! Why?? Cause 2 + 2 + 1 + 2 = 7... Why those numbers?? HELLOO!! My birthday... 22 of december... 22. 12 !! REMEMBER KAY!! Expecting present ^^ ahax ^^ joking joking ^^

When the rain stopped we went out to the court to do penalty shooting... everyone loves penalty shooting cause it is very relaxed ^^ Rachel was clearing the water from the under-18 half side of the court... she did most of it cause she did not want everyone shoes to get wet... ain't she sweet ^^ the other half of the court ( under-15 ) was super funny... their rule was whoever shoots an airball has to clear the water... so if A shoots an airball first, A has to start clearing the water... but if during B's turn, B shoots an airball, then B takes over A and has to clear the water ^^

Layout!! Wheee!! We did that till the end ^^ so yeah ^^

Went home at 10.30... ate a lil bit... changed and zoomed to the dance studio!!! Did warm up... and private class started...@_@... I still having the same problem since i started dancing... i have no body tone... like a worm as Belman describes it... After 1 torturing hour, it got supposedly much better but not at my best yet so i have to practice real hard!!!! XD!!

Group class... finished off our novice jive... the steps are ok but the ending is confusing though @_@ I'll just remember the steps and leave the guy to lead me in right direction ^^ My feet nearly died!! But i can still stand... PHEW!!! Well, more dance to come... thursday still got private class and group class... friday too... saturday is group class and sunday would be practice and then off to Lake Club to support Johnston and Nicole's performance and to dance as well... !! I can do it!! I will survive this week!! YEAAAHHHHHH!!!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Change of plans!!!

2009-03-17T19:25:00.003+08:00

Lets see how much my plans for the holiday differed after like a couple of days... AHEM!!

Monday
7.30 - 10.00 : Basketball Practice
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice ( DID NOT ATTEND )
12.30 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Tuesday
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice
12.30 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Wednesday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheer leading practice ( CANNOT ATTEND! )
11.30 - 1.00 : Private dance class!!
1.00 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Thursday
7.30 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice ( LEAVING EARLY! )
11.30 - 1.00 : Private dance class!!
1.00 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!

Friday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training
8.00 - 12.00 : Cheerleading practice ( WILL NOT ATTEND )
12.30 - 3.00 : Dance class!!!
9.00 - 10.30 : Private dance class!!

Saturday
12.30 - 2.30 : Dance class!!
2.30 - 3.10 : Lunch
3.10 - ??? : Dance dance dance!!

Sunday
9.30 - 11.00 : Art Class!
3.00 - ????? : Dance practice!!

YEAH!! guess that is about it for my holiday... not much of a holiday cause after i come home from dance it is bathe sleep eat sleep... too tired...@_@

Oh...competitions to come for dance...

May 1- 3 : Penang!
July 10 - 12 : Surabaya ( Indonesia )
August 30 : Crystal Dance sport ( Shangri-La hotel )

CAN'T WAIT FOR EM!! Yet i can... hmm... not sure le... @_@ anywayz... i just have to practice practice and practice... ^^ DANCING ROXS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Holiday Plans!! WOOHOOO!!

2009-03-12T10:58:00.005+08:00

Yeah!! Only a couple more days till holiday!! Well, fine... a one week break!! Here's my plan for about the whole week!! Oh and I will be attending a few lectures at KDU University College too!!
The reason why you will see that my schedule has dance everyday is because... my dance practices have yet to be arranged yet! So YEAH!! But I don't mind dancing everyday!! XD

Monday
7.30 - 10.00 : Basketball Practice!
2.00 - 3.00 : Mass Comm. ( Film & Photography )
3.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Tuesday
12.00 - 2.00 : Hospitality ( Tourism Industry )
2.00 - 4.00 : IT ( Multimedia Fun & Easy )
4.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Wednesday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training!
2.00 - 3.00 : Mass Comm. ( New Media )
3.00 - 6.00 : Culinary ( Food Production )
6.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Thursday
10.00 - 12.00 : Hospitality ( Introduction to German )
12.00 - 4.00 : Culinary ( Pastry )
4.00 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Friday
7.30 - 10.30 : Basketball Training!
10.30 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Saturday
1.00 - 4.30 : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!
5.00 - 7.30 : Basketball Practice!

Sunday
9.30 - 11.00 : Art Class!
3.30 - ??? : DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

Monday
Back to SCHOOL!!...* groan *

:+: Su_mEi :+:

Change of Bloggie Name and Bloggie Add ^^

2009-03-07T22:36:00.004+08:00

Well, I have been thinking since I don't talk much fantasy on this web, I guess I will stick to something more down to earth ^^ Why I chose the title SeP3r@+e W0rLd$ ?? Guys, read the small words la. " Close your eyes. Imagine Fantasy. Open your eyes. See Reality."

The separate worlds I am talking about in the title are the two worlds everyone lives in. Everyone lives in Reality. Yet everyone lives in Fantasy. There are some things people refuse to accept in life and how do they deny them? They merely run away from them by imagining something they would rather see or feel or wtv ( you know what I mean and do not deny it cause you do it too... ADMIT IT!! ) So this comes to the reason my bloggie's add is "2worlds-through-2eyes..."Cause... we have 2 eyes... unless you tell me you have three or something ( this excludes special people )we have 2 eyes... as i was saying.. so with these 2 eyes... we see things we wish would happen and things that actually happens.. so we see reality and fantasy.. FULL STOP!! ^^ that's all the explanation i can give you guys!!

LOV3 YA!! :+: Su_mEi :+:

iNkH3@rT!!!!

2009-01-21T20:12:00.003+08:00

INKHEART IS COMING OUT!! WOOOHOOO!!! Lets hope it is not like Twilight where the book rocks and movie sucks!! People out there!!! if you haven't read the book read it!! But read it after you watch the movie ( if you want to )! The book is always nicer than the movie except for some cases like The Lord Of The Rings... ^^ Have FUN!!!

Happie Bday!!

2009-01-01T01:22:00.004+08:00

This post is 101% dedicated to Mr Tan Tun...opps i mean Tan Choon WEI!! ahax ^^ finally 16 years old like the rest of us!! XD

Appie birthday to YOU!!
Appie birthday to YOU!!
Appie birthday to TAN CHOON WEI!!! ( was about to say tan tun wei )
Appie birthday to YOU!!!!!

The emperor's new groove version now...

Appie appie birthday!!
To all my friends and YOOUU!!!
I wish it was my birthday...
SO I COULD PARTY TOO!!!

I guess i changed it a bit ^^ Anywayz!! Happy Blessed Wondrous Fantabulous Brilliant Fantastic Great Magnificent Marvellous Outstanding Superb Terrific Tremendous Amazing Astonishing Extraordinary Incredible Miraculous Phenomenal Staggering Startling Unheard-of 16th BIRTHDAY!!! Awwww, sweet 16th?? ^^

Taking my first step 5 years ago,
Into an unknown place,
Full of mysteries and supposedly adventure,
I come to meet new people,
New faces,
New voices.
I met you,
The you who looks so childish,
So geeky ( no offense )
So nerdy,
So weird i might say so myself.

As the years passed,
Closer as friends we got,
I learned of your goodness and your faults.
Many people have changed,
Some for the better, some for the worse.
You my friend has changed alot,
To fun,
To smart,
To extraordinary,
To maturity.
But what was left unchanged,
Was the you who was, is and will always be my friend.

Thank you, for taking the first step to be my friend,
For being around when i was lonely,
For being there to joke with me,
For being there to wish me happy birthday.

So now is my turn,
To wish you once again,
Happy 16th Birthday!

I wrote this on the spot. ^^ so ahax ^^

Hugz from your friend, :+: Su_mEi :+:

School + Holiday = " School Holiday "

2008-12-26T18:36:00.003+08:00

1 day after Christmas!! Bet a lot of you guys still receiving nice present hor!!! The reason why the title for today is " School holiday " is cause i went to school today... YUP!! During the SCHOOL HOLIDAYS, i went to SCHOOL, to do WORK! How nice right...^^

Just only yesterday, Choon Wei got me to call him ( waste my precious credit ) so he could tell me to be in school by 9 to have breakfast with him... Got up at 8.15, did the all usual stuff everyone does ( if you don't, i think you need some major hygiene lessons ) I think the song we use to sing goes...

Bangun pagi,
Gosok gigi,
Cuci muka,
Pakai baju... and etc... ( thou shall forgive me for i forgot the song XD )

Poem of today...

Daily things we do,
Like going to the loo,
Has become such a habit,
We won't become dirty rabbits.

On my way to school,
I try to stay so cool,
To find a buddy missing,
Telling me McD is where we're meeting.

Tick, tock, tick, tock, tickety, TOCK,
Reading my book as still as a rock,
Here comes my buddy,
Ever so tardy.

A meal we call,
My money falls, ( belanja ma )
Chit, chat, eat, chit, chat, eat,
Doing it is like a beat.

Diabetes he longs to get, ( 2 creamer and 2 sugar packets )
While he worries to get fat, ( " Mayo very fattening " )
Jeanny comes in a while along,
While her phone plays a song.

Back to school,
We work in twos,
Hoping to finish,
The work the teacher banished??

Lunch, lunch, lunch,
2 subway sandwiches we munch,
Each taking 6 inches,
Then to buy some fishes, ( To feed Jean's big fish... sad right )

Basketball, basketball,
Lucky i did not fall,
Blisters i got from running without shoes,
I wonder which is worse, blisters or bitten by a goose...

Off to Jean's house we walk,
Along the way we talk,
After a short while,
I bid farewell and rode a mile.

Oookay, some parts are weird... well, i am writing this on the spot so how the heck can it be good right ^^ SEE YA!! I will be off to Ipoh for breakfast tomorrow then off the Taiping to spend the night... Next day, Langkawi HERE I COME!!! And on the 30th Ipoh beansprouts wait for me!! and 31st HOME SWEET HOME!!!

HAPPIE HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!

Lotsa love, :+: Su_mEi :+:

Blessed Cwishmasss!!

2008-12-25T21:25:00.003+08:00

HoHoHo!! MEWWIE CWISHMAS!!

Got up today at like 7 in the morning as Ms Alliyza told me to be in church at 8 to help with F&B food packing... went to church to find her not there... she came bout 10-15 mins late... ^^ was packing and packing food until my stomach hurt like mad... why?? cause the very smart me decided to not eat breakfast before going. We finished packing at about 9.30 and by that time, the whole auditorium was full including Hall 3... We ( Alliyza, Michelle and I ) had to sit outside at the Cafe... And i was conviniently sitting facing the air-cond! I was freezing and on top of that my water was cold ( to fill my stomach )... Lydia soon came to join us and we talked and talked and well, listened a bit i guess ^^ I was also smsing Choon Wei because he was suppose to drop by in which he did not...

After a while, the clowns came out to Concourse 1 and 2... i called Daryll ( 1 of the clowns ) over as i wanted to ask him if it is even possible to find him later to give him his present... He came over and taunted me... I HATE CLOWNS!! They are freaky and scary... BRRRR!!!

Once celebration was over, People Hunt began! It was super hard to find certain people... and i felt so short at that very time when 2,000 over people was walking around me... The only head i could see popping out from the crowd was Daryll's as he was wearing ultra colourful wig and he is tall... So... hunt hunt hunt hunt hunt hunt hunt hunt!!!HUNT!!!

Finally knock down the numbers to find to 2 adults left, Uncle Jit ( just found out he is still in Singapore ) and A. Vivi!!! find them next time...

Either way it was enjoyable in some sorta way! XD... Plus, it is quite impossible to get angry and christmas day as it is one of the most joyous and giving day!! So....

BLESSED CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

Continuation of " It was my birthday?? "

2008-12-25T18:05:00.003+08:00

... As i promised i am continuing my post...

At Jeannette's House ( sleepover )

I reached her house and got my stuff into her room. Then i passed her and Mellisa ( sister ) their Christmas presents as i did not want to go hunting for them on Christmas day. WHEEE!! We took turns taking a bath as we reeked of BBQ and smoke smell... quite a heavenly smell if i may add... but smelling it makes me more hungry so no point if i cannot find food later... Jeannette passed me my present and told me not to open till 12 midnight... We chit chatted ( like what girls do )till midnight where i opened my present and found this cute phone chain if i would call it... it glows in the dark you know ( will get photos in soon )...and they both wished me happy bday!! i am finally 16 after 1 whole year... XD We continued the night by just talking and talking till Jeannette fell asleep... i did receive some sms in the morning at an unreasonable time though

Next day, we were suppose to get up at 9.30 but Mr Tan Choon Wei called and i got up so i was up... i day dreamed and turn and toss and fell to the floor but other than that i was up... at 11 Jeannette was still not up so i decided to wake her up... We got dressed and then cycled to Mellisa's school ( SK BU4 ). The ride there was so wonderful i managed to get my knee scraped and palms too... Imagine... I stopped the bike cause i was off balance and then I start laughing and in slow motion fall off the bike and ZOOOOM by goes a car... ( i haven't ridden one in like how many years!! ) That's the story of my first few injuries for my bday. How wonderful.

We reached the school and for those who know Mellisa Kuek, you know how tall she is ( still shorter than me )... The school guard refused to let her into the school thinking that no she cannot be 11 years old.. she has to be in secondary school which was so wrong... Bought her books after discussing with the PAK CIK and we cycled home.. i changed to a more high tech bike and reached home safely...

We took baths and then i was playing with my hair on how to tie it... Well... in the end Jean had her fun tying it... Thx girl! Man... she is so straight that i think she could even use a ruler to make sure that one plait was equally as far from the center parting as the other... and use a weighing machine or measuring tape to make sure the thickness was the same... PHEW! We got ready and called the taxi and went downstairs and saw... AARON LAU!

He was strumming the guitar in some song i could not recognise or did not take the effort to... I was cycling on the exercise bike while Jean told Aaron of how i fell off a bicycle. THX JEAN! Taxi reached and off we hopped to The Curve.

We walked a bit as we were early and then off to Marche for lunch with the cg members!! But no one there yet... Darn... so we went to go check out movie times as we wanted to watch... guess... YES... YES MAN!! no i mean the show YES MAN!! anyway... we checked the time and walked back to Marche... and found some other friends, so we decided to go in. After waiting awhile the rest came. We started to order our food. I took chicken chop with mashed potato and a glass of lemon juice. Costs RM23.30 all together... Imagine that... I warned Debbie and Eunice about not wanting to find a cake in front of me and guess what, i found CUPCAKES! They decided that cupcakes are not cakes... they are cupcakes... Well, i was shy but i loved the cupcakes... THX EUNICE ( Peh ) for the cupcakes!! love them!!

We ate, took photos, had gift exchange and went out separate ways. I went to watch movie with Aaron, Jean, Ian (BU) and his girlfriend... The show was super lame and funny... PEOPLE! if you don't laugh at the show... you gotta see a doctor man!! Once the show ended, i decided to spend the rest of the day with my family! So i went back and me and my family went for dinner at a place of my choice. So my dad suggested Secret Recipe! and DUH I WANT MY LASAGNA!!( forgive me if i spelled it wrongly )I ate the same thing last year though ^^ So we ate and i went home and spent the rest of the night in front of my lovely computer which i am at the moment using.

Thats about it for now... will type more later and yups!! SMELL YA!! ( oookay... thats too lame =.=" )

:+: Su_mEi :+:

It was my birthday??

2008-12-24T23:11:00.004+08:00

Hey everyone! totally gave up on updating this blog but i shall try my best to do it again!! YEAH!! GAMBATEH!!

As some of you may know, my birthday i think... was on the 22nd of December! ahax ^^ well for those who sent me sweet messages... thanks very ultra much for remembering... for those who called... THANKS for waking me up from my beauty sleep ^^ it was very nice of you.. ^^ Those who greeted me face to face... THanks to you also... Let me show you the list : People who...~

... Messaged / SMSed me :~
~> Hotlink was the first (wow)
~> Coco!
~> Joy
~> Wen Jiat
~> Kelly!! ( THX for remembering gurl!! )
~> David
~> My father!!
~> Su Ming ( 2nd sis!)
~> MUMMY!!
~> Su Vian ( 1st sis!! )
~> Choon Sam
~> Michelle Siew
~> Crystal Loh
~> Alexander ( the great??)
~> Yee Ling!!

... called me from my beauty sleep? :~
~> THE ONE AND ONLY... * drumroll*....... TAN CHOON WEI!!

... greeted me to my bright red face :~
~> Mr James
~> Norman and wife ^^
~> Mathew
~> Neal
~> Jee Ho and buddy ( dunno how to spell buddy's name )
~> Ms Singam ( thanks for the cake )
~> Alex & family
~> Choon Wei ( again )
~> Kazizul
~> Jeannette Kuek May Ling ( the first girl to wish me on my bday! at like 12 midnight sharp )
~> Jeannette's family!!
~> Aaron Lau!
~> Ian ( BU CG... have to specify or not people will get confused )
~> Wilson
~> Adrian
~> Esther
~> Pei Shan
~> Eunice
~> Debbie
~> Daryll
~> Chris
~> Michelle Siew
~> Joshua Siew
~> Alliyza
~> Maybelle
~> Edmund
~> Crystal

p.s. If i missed anyone... i am so sowwie but i still appreciate you!!

Thats the list... THE list!! Ok... lets hear bout how these celebrations started...

The 21st of December ( NIGHT! )

I reached Alex house at 5.30 just to find that Jeannette has not reach! Amazing at the way she was telling me to hurry up... ^^ Anyways... i saw the bbq set and i was like " was that used to play masak masak or something?? "It was so small! I would show the photos when i get em... Continue the story... We started cooking and stuff and ate along the way. Choon Wei dropped a sausage and Jeannette decided to wash it and eat it... Well, i ate it... not her... she did the washing... Choon wei said i was stupid to eat but hey... i am still here typing this blog all healthy... i did not die ^^

Ms Singam came first, while it was convinietly raining... Jeannette went to get her and came back all wet thanks to well, alex's superb umbrella which was half broken ^^ Next was... MR JAMES!! * not punctual enough hehe * Well, then one by one everyone came and we ate and we laughed and we ate and we dropped food and we ate... Then TADA came the cake and TADA my face went red! I tried to run but i couldn't and i had to same something but i could not... so i just made a wish ( i actually did not ) and blew the candles... and done... I got a big nice angpow from alex's parents which was actually nice to admit it ^^ and the rest of the day went on... Joy came and we played mafia which was real fun... then off the JEANNETTE's HOUSE for sleep!!

you know this post is real long... real long... so i shall cut it short in suspense and continue it tomorrow.. i promise i will ^^ wells... SEE YA!!

Dance dance dance~~~

2008-09-17T19:16:00.009+08:00

It has been just a few months since I participated in my first dance competition and also 18 days since i participated in my second!! ^^

The first dance competition was really fun ^^ It was a lil competition among my classmates ( dance ) and I ^^

From left : Nicole, Johnston, Coco, Stanley, the two lil gurls ^^, Natalie,
Bernard, Joy, David, Me , and Kenneth.

2 Reasons why we joined this mini thingy :~
i) To gain a new experience
ii) To entertain the guest at the Lion's Club Dinner Gathering ^^

Oh yes, this whole competition was purely latin. Just Cha Cha and Jive. ^^ Belman had make us practice over and over again... it was breathtaking and i mean really breathtaking as by the time we finished we were totally gasping for air... ^^ Before leaving for the place, a few of us had our make up on already ( one of em ) We got to the place and WOW!! The dance floor was really ' BIG '.... =.="... i mean it sarcastically... The people there were so stingy they did not want to on the air conditioner so we had to practice in that small area of floor in such heat!

People started coming in... very slowly so we all had to go back to the waiting room. We had touched up our make up and changed. Due to our item being one of the last few, we had to wait quite a while with NO DINNER!! foooooddddd~~~ sobx.... The guys got bored and started to play ' chi-ku-pak '... ( i don't know how to spell but pronounce it as u see it ) the loser was dared by the winner at the end of every round. It was really funny to see the guys doing funny funny things. Later on they started to play volleyball using their palms and a bottle i think. =.=".. wasting all their energy but they managed to warm up playing that funny game. ^^

Fast foward!! It was time to go compete!!!!!! Alot of them were sweating like crazy. I as per usual was slightly nervous yet excited ^^ hehe ^^ so on the floor we went!! Oh NOOOO!! Bernard and Natalie took our spot!!! NOOO!!! sigh~~ guess we have to move a little... was a lil worried that we might bang into them. But we did not!! ^^ The whole dance thing was like over in a split second!!!

We got back to the room all exhausted... now we started to worry bout the results but overall we were glad everything was over!! WHEEEEEEE!!

An hour later~~~~ * heart beating like really fast * The time is here... the time is now... We were called on stage!! I was a little nervous though i think it did not really show... ^^... however... when the MC pronounced my name wrongly i was so tempted to correct that person... GRRRRRRRRRRR!!! On my way up i kinda decided that i gained alot of experience here and i think that satisfied me more than enough ( i am pretty easy to please in a way )... ^^ They announced the 6th place... 5th place...4th place... and just by that i was overjoyed!! I did not think i would make the top 3!! XD i was seriously very very very happy i nearly cried but of course i did not... 3rd place.... by that time i was shivering... not because i was nervous but with excitement and satisfaction!! Wow!! I got 2nd placing!! I was really happy!!!

After being released from the stage some problem aroused but it was well taken care of ^^ I was very thankful and i thank God the most!! ^^ I prayed everyday that he would help me improve and that He would be my pillar of support and He was... ^^ i could feel His presence around me and i could imagine already, the wide smile on His face congratulating me ^^ I really wanted to cry tears of happiness ^^ but i decided not too =P... We had photo sessions and then the floors were open~~ We danced and danced and when it was time to go back everyone was dead tired by then ^^

From left : Belman ( Latin teacher ) , C.Y. , A. Joanne ( Ballroom teacher )
Nicole, Johnston, Coco, Stanley, 2 lil kids, Natalie, Bernard, Joy, David,
Me and Kenneth.

The lady in Gold insisted on taking photos with us... she was quite horrible when she danced...

From left : David, Nicole, Coco, lady in gold, Bernard, 2 kids, Stanley,
Kenneth, Joy, Natalie, Johnston, Me, and C.Y.

We're just having pure fun!! hehe ^^

PAST EVENTS OF MUAR LIFE!! f

2008-06-04T22:22:00.014+08:00

Hey everyone...sorry for not posting for a while ^^ been busy ^^ and i mean BUZZZZZZYYY!!! ahax ^^ plus i don't really have anything happening now and i haven't been writing for a while, so i decided to post some pictures of my life in the past events ^^ i think oldest i would post is 2 years ago i think or max 3 years ago... not more than that ^^ so enjoy going through my photos ^^ oh and i will be doing this quite often ^^ today i will focus on the charity sale me and my friend held last year.. ^^

From left is Eunice, Amanda and I ^^ End of last year... we help a charity sale to help raise funds for PAWS!!! ( the organizing team )

One of the voluntary workers there... the dog's name is ROVER!!!

Volunteers at PAWS!!

Everyone they have a Dog of the month award! cool right ^^

A dog is not for Chinese New Year. Or for this year. A DOG IS FOR LIFE!! AMEN!!

The cats have very little room to roam around..poor thing...

A GOLDEN RETRIEVER !! I WANT!!!

THE SALE BEGINS!!!WAHOOOO!!

Sorting out stuff~~~~

SOFT TOYS!!

We collected RM 2070!!! not bad for first timers ^^

Well that is all for today ^^ i will be adding more soon. ^^ Look forward to my future post about my life and one of my recent events which would be the YOUTH ALPHA WEEKEND AWAY!! SEE YA SOON!! byeee~~~

:+: Su Mei :+:

All Alone...

2008-05-20T21:41:00.007+08:00

Sitting at the corner alone,
With my feelings still unknown;
Children running all around,
While chains and locks I do they bound.

Laughter and giggles can I hear,
With nobody anywhere near;
How I wish to laugh along,
But I am left to sing alone a song.

Only colours and papers to be with me,
Where I can pour out my feelings you can't see;
Moody and unsociable I am you think,
But a fact in your head does not sink.

Envy and jealousy is my game,
But anger and unsociability is my fame;
To be understood is what I wish,
But it is like bare hands catching a fish.

We did not have A, B, C,
To choose our lives you see;
This is how we autistic feel,
With our feelings within a seal. ~ Su Mei

Hey, don't get the wrong idea here. I am so not autistic. I just decided to try out if i can write in another person's point of view that not many can see. The first stanza tells us about how autistic people or to be more specific autistic kids feel. They sometimes feel that they are bound to walls with chains and locks so tightly that there is no way to break free. The chains and locks represent the difficulty in expressing. The second stanza is very closely connected to this as the persona sees and hears people laughing and giggling. However, because he is bound by his difficulty in expressing he can't show any sign of laughter. It is as though you want to run to the other wall on the opposite side but because you are chained to the wall, you can't move not a single step. The persona says he is left to sing alone a song because people think he is unsociable so they leave him out of the group.

In stanza 3, it tells us of the ways these autistic people express their feelings. It is a stated fact in life that when you loose something, you gain something else. In this poem it tells us that the persona is talented in drawing and through his drawings will you experience his inner thoughts. Autistic people are mostly gifted in either music, art and so on. They do not have the ability to express inner thoughts but they have something else instead. Because they cannot use words to express, therefore they use music and art to express it. Amazing right. ^^

Stanza 4, I am not stating that these autistic children are devilish and only know how to be jealous of others. I am stating the feelings they have sometimes towards others. They are jealous of the other normals kids that are able to laugh, cry, show anger. They are jealous because they can't express it well. They want to but can't. They only wish to be understood by other people. But it is a fact that sometimes we think we understand an autistic person but in actual fact you don't.

Finally, the persona says that he and his fellow autistic people did not have any choice. They were brought into the world like that and there is nothing that can change that fact.

Autism (say: aw-tih-zum) causes kids to experience the world differently from the way most other kids do. It's hard for kids with autism to talk with other people and express themselves using words. Kids who have autism usually keep to themselves and many can't communicate without special help.

They also may react to what's going on around them in unusual ways. Normal sounds may really bother someone with autism — so much so that the person covers his or her ears. Being touched, even in a gentle way, may feel uncomfortable.

Kids with autism often can't make connections that other kids make easily. For example, when someone smiles, you know the smiling person is happy or being friendly. But a kid with autism may have trouble connecting that smile with the person's happy feelings.

A kid who has autism also has trouble linking words to their meanings. Imagine trying to understand what your mom is saying if you didn't know what her words really mean. It is doubly frustrating then if a kid can't come up with the right words to express his or her own thoughts.

Autism causes kids to act in unusual ways. They might flap their hands, say certain words over and over, have temper tantrums, or play only with one particular toy. Most kids with autism don't like changes in routines. They like to stay on a schedule that is always the same. They also may insist that their toys or other objects be arranged a certain way and get upset if these items are moved or disturbed.

If someone has autism, his or her brain has trouble with an important job: making sense of the world. Every day, your brain interprets the sights, sounds, smells, and other sensations that you experience. If your brain couldn't help you understand these things, you would have trouble functioning, talking, going to school, and doing other everyday stuff. Kids can be mildly affected by autism, so that they only have a little trouble in life, or they can be very affected, so that they need a lot of help.

But, a person is still a person, no matter how insignificant or how different he can be, he has feelings. We as normal people shouldn't be cold to them but instead welcome them with warm arms. We get frustrated when we are not understood so imagine their pain.

( Please already read the poem Daring Tears by Craig Romkema )

:+: Su Mei :+:

My FIRST JOB at WWF in year '07! Was I lucky or unlucky?

2008-05-19T22:34:00.007+08:00

Cool breeze from the air conditioners above me,
Oh, in the cold, shivering are my knees,
The rough surfaces of the tiles under me,
Dragging your feet, you will hear the sound of bees,
To my left, i see files and files,
The sight of them takes away the smiles,
Staring out the clear windows,
I see a busy car park down below,
I hear a bird chirping,
But overpowering it are the sounds of honking,
Busy, Busy, Buzzing employees,
Their fingers type with speed on the keyboard keys,
But worse of all, to my right, the stacks of shirts waiting to be packed,labeled and sent,
Oh, the pain felt from the 'dent' on my head.

"This will be a piece of cake, i will have no problems, that sounds very easy," these were some of the sentences i would say to myself when i was offered a job by WWF to help package their shirts to be sent all around Malaysia. You do know what WWF is don't you? Well, if you don't, i will tell you.It stands for World Wide Fund for Nature. Thats right! What i feel about nature is like what a mouse feels for CHEESE!

Anyway, back to the original topic for today. My cousin who is an employee at WWF came up to me one point in time recently to offer me a job at WWF. She said all i had to do was package all the shirts that were ordered from all around Malaysia. Hearing the sound of money, my ear immediately erased part of the sentence mentioning that the orders were from all around Malaysia. It is not that I just love money but I just enjoy getting as much as I can so that I won't have to always depend on my parents when i want something. Plus, i have never worked in that kind of office so i thought why not give it a shot. That was the beginning of my misfortune.

I went to work on the first day, i saw the Pyramids of Giza when i looked to my right and saw the stack of shirts to be packed. My mouth had already fallen to the ground, but i decided that maybe i should not judge the toughness of this job by just looking at the pile of shirts i have to pack, so i just picked up my mouth and started working. At the end of my first day, being a 'slightly' hot headed person, i started complaining. I complained about the List of orders not being in alphabetical order, i complained about the fact that no one was helping me, i complained about nearly everything i could think of. My head felt as though an arrow just shot straight through my head. I was tired and i could not do anything so i just went to sleep. The following day, the same thing repeated, and repeated, and repeated. By the fourth day, i finished the pile of shirts i first saw on my first day. I was so happy i 'hit the ceiling' but i knocked my head on the ground when they told me i had to type more air way bills for more packages and a this time i saw the Leaning Tower of Pisa.

After about a week of working there i finally finished all my work and i would get my pay check soon. From then on i knew that i was not the type to work in such places as it is a pain in the neck. I decided that i would hopefully work in a more 'peaceful' environment.

I read it from another place but this is the only picture i can get to show.

When i an assignment to read on the story Moon by Chaim Potok and Iqbal Masih by David L. Parker from stolen Dreams : Portraits of Working Children, i thought that this will be just a story. However, tears started to flow from my eyes down my cheek, wetting my shirt as i read the story. Admitting it, i am a lachrymose whenever i watch,see,read or hear sad things and even touching something that has a sad memory. This story just moved me as i read on how children at the mere age of 4 are sold away to work at carpet factories. Imagine being sold away by you own family. How painful it is to part with your only blood relative, but i also admire these people that they are tough. Their problems are like a tsunami compared to my little wave yet they do not complain as much as i do.

I knew all along that i was lucky to be born in a loving family, to be able to be educated well, to have to opportunity to join anything i please and to have to say in what i do, but, maybe i have not been thankful enough yet. I compare my situation to the Pakistani children. They get so much less than i do yet they smile and they are so joyful. They neither have the education i have, not a loving family, or a say in what they do, yet they are so thankful for what they have.

Thinking back, my experience working with WWF may actually be a good experience. I got to experience working in an office that not everyone can get, i learnt how to use a typewriter, i learnt to work fast, but most of all, i learnt a lesson that will change me. I learnt that i should be patient, be happy when i am able to help others, and most of all, i should be thankful.

I was brought to this Earth for a reason. I was given a goal in life when i took my first breath. My experience working is just one of the hardships i will have to face in life. I cannot rush to reach my goal as i can only see so much of my future. This is just a stepping stone and i am glad i have passed it. The hardships i will face in the future will be much worse than this so i will have to take it slowly and PATIENTLY.

When running a marathon, we...
Pant, pant, run, run, pant, pant, run, run
When we study, we...
Study,study,stress,stress,study, study, stress, stress
All we're doing is all wrong
No wonder we always sing a sad song
We always over do all things
Doing this is right, we think
Chill,chill, do not rush,
it is not the end you know
sprint, jog, sprint,jog
study, rest, study, rest
And at the end, push with all you have left,
don't look right, don't look left,
focus on your goal,
to satisfy your soul
Do this and you'll be at the top
in 1 piece
1 breath
but with a 1000 smiles!

If everyone in the world started becoming more thankful, this world would change for the better. No more wars, no more torture. Just peace and harmony.

I may not get many opportunities to work for money at the moment, but i have all the time to help the needy.I do quite a lot of voluntary work often but maybe i can still do more. By decreasing the time i use to play computer games and watch Japanese Animations, i can spend more time helping others who need my help. Packaging is definitely not one of my strengths. But i was born with gifts and these gifts are to create a better future of others as well as myself. I will use them to the MAX to create a better future for everyone and i will try to make a difference in the world. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! Never give up on something, miracles happen everyday.

( This was one of my journal entries at the start of year 2008 As for the two stories. I advise everyone to read it. I don't usually like these type of stories but it was really touching. ^^)

:+: Su Mei :+:

CLEAN UP YER DECK!

2008-05-18T16:49:00.003+08:00

Clean up Yer' deck or ya'll be walking the PLANK!
Hand in your homework or you'll be getting a SPANK!
Orders, orders, orders,
Such annoying orders,
Getting us to do more work everyday,
NO! we just wish to say.

We never get to rest,
And they complain we don't get best!
Row, row, do not stop!
Work, work, do not stop!
Such horrifying words we hear all day,
How we wish to dance at the bay.

Free from everything,
All we do is sing,
Living a joyful life,
With a wonderful wife. ( Future )

I guess you can tell what the whole poem is about i suppose. It is really quite obvious. Oh and please ignore the wife thingy. I just had trouble thinking of a rhyme for life. ^^

:+: Su Mei :+:

Choc Factory Visit ^^

2008-05-18T14:59:00.016+08:00

As stated so clearly by the title, I visited Beryl's Choc. Factory not very long ago. The date of my visit is not popping out in my head so well, i went not long ago. ^^ I went there as a helper and photographer together with a group of kids from the Edison Explorer Academy. Use to be a student there so now i am too old so I go back as a helper. It is a class where kids from ages 6-12 learn very useful thinking skill in a very very very fun way. Back to the topic anyway...

The two teachers... like 5% of the kids... with their mums!!

We had to hire two buses to fit everyone in!! And it is a very nice bus!

Kids checking out which bus there are placed in!

The kids had groups of i think about 3-4 kids and 1 guardian. At the start of the trip they were given a quiz paper. It was part of the Wonka Challenge. This trip was an outing for the topic Charlie and The Chocolate Factory that is being held for 2 months. Some of the questions they already learnt it during classes. However, some of them they had to observe during the whole trip. I was in Aunty Amy (The founder of this academy )'s bus! The journey there took about 1/2 hour. Then...FINALLY we reached our destination!

The first thing i noticed was the big cacao bean! The factory looked more like a shop ( big one ) instead of a factory. Once we went in, we saw two shops on opposite sides in the shade selling... CHOCOLATES!! I just love milk choc. especially!! ~ slurp ~ BUT!! No time to buy stuff... i had to continue taking photos of the ultra excited kids..

We went up a flight of staircases and TADA! A door! We entered the door and it kinda smelled stuffy. I guess thats because they never really aired the room and i saw a big sign that told me I was just given a break from my job. It was a NO... sign and the big picture of a camera was there XD! Anyways, we went in and everyone got a sit except for me. Oh well, i guess i can stand. ^^ Then... BOOM! The electricity went out for like 5 mins and it came back. A lady then came in and gave everyone a brief talk about the factory and showed a slide show.

After all that, the doors on the other side opened and the smell!! The chocolate smell was overflowing and it was glorious! We went through the door into this corridor...on the walls there were like big boards showing the history of chocolate. It was said that the first people to discover the secret of cacao was the people during the classic period maya. I was mixed with water, pepper, and other spices as a frothy and spicy drink. Sounds disgusting to me though. ^^

After that, choc was a European symbol of wealth and power. Imagine our money as choc? I think i would be extra poor cause i will be eating everyone of em ^^ Then we went along into this room where they showed us all of beryl's different type of chocs. Some were in a shape of a bunny, egg, football and lots more. ^^ We continued by looking at the various ways of making choc. I am quite sure you have eaten chocolates that are round and have nuts right. Did you know that just to make them you put the nuts in something that looks like the machine to mix cement. Well, you just have to turn the thing, and the pipe in front of the opening will squirt out chocolate at it and it also acts as a blower to make sure the chocolates don't stick. ^^ Then they showed us the various types of packaging. Mostly done by machines of course.

Kids posing with a cow statue~~

We ended the whole trip at the choco factory by buying CHOCOLATES! I bought quite a bit for me and my family! SLURP!!! After that, back on the buses! And off to the next activity. Oh, before we left the choco factory the kids had to hand up their quiz papers! And A. Amy was marking it on the way back to see the final 11 groups that would be going to the next round.

The next round of the Wonka challenge! The kids had to guess how many chocolates there were in a big round bottle. The 6 groups that were closest to the answer will gooo to the next round!! We then had a short briefing for the parents on what Edison Explorers is but i shan't go into detail. Next round was wheel-burrow ^^ the kids had to pair up and at the starting line there are plates. And at the other end there were plates also, but with slices of lemon! I also love lemon! ^^ they had to bring their partners to the other side and pick up the lemon with their mouth and bring the lemon back to the other side again. There are 4 lemons for each group. And the fastest team will win. It was really funny to see them pick up the lemons and because they were rushing they did not make a U-turn but drag their partner with the lemon backwards. ^^ The prizes were amazing! RM 100 and about 100 famous Amos cookies!!!

I would love to continue but i guess i shouldn't make this too long winded ^^ hehe ^^ find out more next time ^^

:+: Su Mei :+:

STRESS!! not....

2008-04-25T22:44:00.005+08:00

When running a marathon, we...
Pant, pant, run, run, pant, pant, run, run;
When we study, we...
Study, study, stress, stress, study, study, stress, stress.

All we're doing is all wrong,
No wonder we always sing a sad song;
We always over do all things,
Doing this is right, we think.

Chill, chill, do not rush,
It is not the end you know.
Sprint, jog, sprint, jog,
Study, rest, study, rest.

And at the end, push with all you have left,
Do not look right, nor left,
Focus on the goal,
To satisfy your soul.

Do this and you'll be at the top,
In 1 piece,
1 breath,
BUT with 1000 SMILES!!
~ Su Mei

Stress....STRESS!! everyone says that... admit it. With homework everyday, extra activities...people tend to stress out easily. Why?? I believe it is due to pressure and too high expectancy. Pressure is because other people then to pressure or expect others to do well in certain areas or even all areas.

It is said that a lot of pressure are placed on Chinese students studying in Chinese school ( SJKC schools ). Chinese school students generally have too much homework if i have to say so myself. The parents of the kids also tend to provide their kids with the 'best' gift of all ( at least they think so ). MORE WORKBOOKS!! They only think about their children getting straight A's in the exams. What pressure...don't you agree?? Comparing your kids is also another factor why they get stressed up. No matter how humble you may be, you have the tendency to want to be better than others. ADMIT IT!

This poem i wrote a while ago, tells us about how we should NOT stress out. We can always have a lot of homework, work, extra activities, and at the same time avoid stress. Just take it easy. Have good time management if possible. Your personality also affects your stress level just to add. If you are a hardworking type of person, you will do fine most of the time. Organized, well you have good time management i suppose. Lazy people, you gotta buck up!

Here are some solutions how to stay away from stress.

1~> People who are hardworking... Learn from the lazy ones how to relax. (and vice versa )
2~> GET A HOBBY...
3~> Do something you enjoy...
4~> Listen to music...

Thats all for today i guess~~ Hehe ^^ if anyone has any comments, suggestions or you disagree with something i said, please write them in the comments..thank you very much...^^

:+: Su Mei :+:

The Flow of Life~~~

2008-04-25T13:49:00.001+08:00

We all know how a tree moves,
It sways to the right, and it sways to the left;
Sometimes it just stands tall.

Life has its own flow too,
Sometimes we may be happy,
Sometimes we may be sad,
Angry, depressed, stressed up also,
Jovial, crazy, nutty at times;
Sometimes we may be still,
When no emotion comes aloud.

When a tree comes to age,
It is then chopped down,
And it is then its life ends.

It is the same for us,
Once we reach old age,
We start to 'malfunction',
Our lives then fade away,
Everything then goes blank.

But where there is death,
There is life.
A new born replaces the gone.
This is the flow of life,
Not for humans, nor for plants;
But for everything created by Him.
~ Su Mei

Life can be very similar to the things around us. We always say, animals don't have stress or plants too. But if we think about it, animals and plants also have lots of stress like we do. Animals have to hunt for food or they are always being hunted. Plants have to fight with each other to get enough sufficient minerals and water. Humans... need I say??? We have many many more similarities to these things... just open your eyes and you can see them.

:+: Su Mei :+:

Here We go again....^^

2008-04-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone! eheh ^^ this is like my blog number dunno what la. Keep on making new ones because i did not like the old ones. =P ~picky picky picky~ Well, i will try to keep to this one for as long as i can. Still new at this though. With my tight schedule I will barely have time to keep up. But I SHALL TRY MY BEST! AHAH ^^ I would be posting lots of my creations if i can (poems..stories...etc ) Anyone and everyone is free to post your comments! Hope they are good but if you have bad comments, not good to keep em in. Tell me! Hehe ^^ Well, thats it for today i suppose. If anyone has any suggestions you are free to post em up! hehe ^^ This is after all a place to dream the impossible. Nothing shall be impossible if we can just imagine and feel it!

p.s. just trying out the photo. Took it in school..... Was half asleep when i took it.. ^^

BYEEEE~~~~